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HELLO fellow bloggers, it is I again, yours truly KENNETH WONG, clap clap clap, chee perasaan, haha.
Any hows I realize one more thing in life, everything I do it I do it for God, I run, jog, eat, sleep, shower, and everything else, I do it for God and also God's will. When ever i do something and i pray over it, it feels easier to do and I find it very meaningful and it makes a whole lot of difference knowing that God is there for me.
And it feels great being my new person now, I live everyday fresh and full of love to give to and of course being happy and joyful for the lord is with me. I will from now try to spread the love of God as far as possible and of course i will help those who are in need with the help of my Father in heaven.
How awesome is him to heal my broken soul and to give me a new heart and mind, my words could not express the miracle that happen to me. I will make sure that my friends will experience the healing and loving power of God because there is no one on earth that could do this except God.
"IT MAKES A DIFFERENCE KNOWING GOD IS THERE WITH US"
Hello fellow bloggers, i notice one thing very interesting and wonderful in my life.
I notice that when i finally put to death the demon of depression in my life, GOOD RIDDANCE once and for all, somehow last time it decided to go for a holiday break. But this time i put it to death for good once and for all, i am a new being now.
I am so thankful that God has made me fresh a new, now my friends say that they are glad that i am back to my positive self again, the Kenneth they knew earlier in the year and also one more thing is that i could stand a chance to help others who are also going through this stage of depression in life.
I think that somehow all of us will go through depression in one stage or another, it is a good stage as there is a very good explanation behind it, remember the heart i drawn and post it on one of the post, well the heart show as an overall is the surface area of our emotional life and we fell depressed because there are some sediments or deep dark stored away feelings that needs to be cleaned, so if we all manage to persevere, we will be able to clean our heart and change it a new.
And i think the only way we should help a depressed person is to talk to him, listen to him, NEVER JUDGE him because its very cliche to him, help him solve his problems, help him let everything out and of course pray together as a whole that God will cleanse his heart through this process.
Be positive to someone is the best thing we can do to be nice and cheery, the moment we make someone happy or lifted his burden, the glory be to God and you have saved someone's day.
GOD + JOY + FAITH = HAPPYNESS IN LIFE
They say a woman can melt a mens heart but a Mom can heal a broken heart and that is so true.
As you all know by now that i have turn over a new leaf, being my positive self everyday, seeing each day as a blessing and of course not moaning anymore of the past but being grateful and appreciating the small things in life.
My week has been awesome and wonderful, so many new experiences and teachings in life, one great thing about God is that he never cease to teach and guide. I was having th time of my life, thought there are projects and homework and studies, the Lord never cease to be there for me and guiding me through everything in life.
Today is by far the most interesting day ever, i was happy the whole week and never want to cease being joyful in the Lord but today i face one major challenge and i am a bit shy to share this part, just know its a big task and i failed to accomplish the task but i still manage to look it over and take it easy, look things over and cheer myself up and the first time i manage to fight back depression by the good grace of God.
But somehow the depression kept knocking on my door and once in a while it will kick back in, so i prayed and asked God to help me, Lo and behold when i was doing my homework and chatting, my mom was online, so we had a nice chat like all mom would do with her son.
My mom was so good at comforting me and guiding me on, she loves me so much that no matter how many times i say i failed, she would encourage me to be stronger and persevere. At the end i felt this was God's help beacon for me, my mom was the person who i would think last to see about this challenge that i failed but what i did not know, is that she is the most understanding and caring person on earth towards me.
So next time if you have any problem, seek your mom for help, talk to her and just chat, who knows she might even help you solve your problem.
"OUR MOM IS OUR CLOSEST AND BEST FRIEND, WHOSE LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL TOWARDS HER CHILD, SHE WIPES OUR TEARS AND PICK US UP WHEN WE FALL." Amen
Good tidings to you fellow blog viewers, i am here once again with another post.
It is yet another week and day of my life, this week seems to be different that the rest of the week.
Why you ask? Because i have God with me there all the way, for the first time in my life, i am not sorrowful and in depression but what is most exciting is that God has reveal so many new things in my life.
In this week, i was able to experience the new me, that is now, i was never so changed and renewed, now everyday i am able to fulfill my quota of study and still have time for exercise and by God's good grace i was able to lose weight. The most exciting part is when i went jogging, i was persevering and patience.
Not to brag but this is the first time i was able to jog non stop, although there are times where i would slow down and do a slow jog but the best part of is there was time i wanted to stop and just walk somehow i did not stop, i kept on going, i went down all the way to the temple, went down hill some more and then non stop all the way uphill.
Dont know why but i just did not want to stop, i want to keep going but my legs could not anymore. Woa i have to day God was there with me all the way, giving me push, some how i feel him right beside me and coaching me on and giving me support.
All in all this week is a very blessed day and he has been so good to me, giving me comfort and guidance but most of all showing me love and compassion, when i want to be emo, i just look to him and instantly i am better, i have defeated the demon of depression in me.
I am change because of him and i believe he has many things installed for me.
Everyday is a new day, the old has gone the new has come, be glad in it and rejoice.
Hello fellow blog readers, here i am today again with another post but todays one will be a positive and good one.
I have finally found the happiness that trespasses all understanding, you don't know why but you are just happy because God has yet again once amaze me and touch my soul and with a little help from my friends, i manage to turn that emo self of mine into the happy positive KENNETH that i am always.
My friend Dillon wrote this something very true and realizing to me , when i started to tell him why i was depressed and sorrowful, he gave me all ears and gave me comfort but best of all, he understand me and taught me a lot through his e-mails and messenger.
He told me that every time we are depressed, we tend to think about the past but Christ has made a new being, the old has gone, the new has come. When we tend to keep looking back to the past, we tend to miss out the Good things that God has prepared for us in the present.
So through this simple words, i was able to revive myself again and God has help filled that void with unconditioning love and true joy. It is very true that when you learn to let go the past and move on, you will see that things around you start to get better.
When i finally stop being emo, start to appreciate the present and little things in life, i notice i am doing better than ever before, i have manage to live a life that is full and prosperous. By God's good grace, i was able to loss weight and slime down, i am able to do things i have never done before and i have been blessed so much.
Praise and glory be unto our God which is so merciful and caring to the lost and sinful, just remember this, when you feel your struggling all alone and feel left out, GOD LOVES AND CARES TOO MUCH ABOUT YOU TO LET YOU GO, Yes he is the only one who truly understands and loves us.
If you have any problem, pray to God, he knows what we are going through.
"Life can be a struggle but how we face the struggle determines the outcome of our day"
Today is Sunday and we had awesome worship with Adrian leading us, James as the bassist, Sue yin as the pianist, Lai yi May and Alysha as the praise singers and of course yours truly as the drummer, i have to say this is the first time i played so well and gang huo, the rolls were solid and the beats constant.
I felt awesome being able to play like that for God but somehow there is still that void in my heart and the sermon today was good and interesting but it did not manage to touch me a bit. I went back home and though to myself, is that void still there? Yes it is, Is that dry part of my heart still there, Yes it is.
To tell the truth, my body is weak and keeps yearning for a relationship, every moment when i am in thoughts, the first thing i think of is about relationships, somehow i manage to control it and do my projects.... zzzzzz
After finishing my quota, I did a bit of exercise and work out but somehow the though just keep coming back, no matter how filled i feel, there is bound to be that dry part of my life. Judge if you want, talk about my failures if you want, i am still human, i have feelings, all this caused frustration and my day did not turn out quite well.
It rained when i was half way playing basketball and i cant enjoy my basketball today because of the frustration that keeps going through my mind, when we finished playing in the rain, we went back home and i was walking home, again the frustration kicked in and i was furious at how my life was!
But when i think back again, i remember telling myself that we are all blessed in different aspects of life, like my drums and although i might not have a life of a teenager, i still got to make do with i have cause lamenting over it wont solve my problem.
I still have that dry spot in my life which is longing to be filled and i know God can only cure it.
I have many experiences in my life but i am reluctant to share it because mostly i would not be heard or corrected and that has inflicted a fear of ignorance in my life but i don"t blame anybody as i also have failed to lend a listening ear to everybody else.
Whatever i am going through it is for benefit of my future, suffer now prosper in heaven.
Hello people. firstly i would like to apologize for being so down and depressed this few days, truly sorry for being so emo also but now i feel very happy and enlighten by the grace of God. He has once again never seem to amaze me and make me go "WOW"!
Today i woke up all mourning and full of sorrow, i thought i was going to go through another day of misery and sorrow but the Lord never cease to brighten up my day. Today at school was very relax and going easy, i was able to complete and submit all 30 ICT projects of mine to teacher for the lembaga people to check, hopefully i get a good review from them, one task down.
But that was not what made my day this day, what truly turn my sorrow into joy was at CF. The whole day i was thinking of skipping CF, go home and take a break but somehow God is so amazing, he manage to convince me to stay back for CF, he gave me a hope that something different was going to happen today.
So after school, i went to CF. Today CF we were split up morning session in one room and afternoon session in another, so I though "Well here goes another day..." but just when i though it was going to be the same, remember the girl i told you about. She usually comes to CF but i rarely get to speak to her and somehow she was sitting behind me alone, at first i was like dont care at all but one part of me says this is the perfect time to get to know her but my heart could not stop jumping in excitement and fear.
What if i screw up? Thank God for my good friend Albert, if it were not for him to encourage me and show me support i would not have gone to talk to her but when i wanted to talk to her, i gave an excuse that there were too many people around, out of the blue the people around her suddenly moved out of the way, then my friend went:"Go now, just be yourself and talk to her, its the perfect time, go on come on, GO ON." He tried pushing me but he was not strong enough but when i finally got the courage to speak to her, the mc for the day announce the starting of CF, i was oh man i blew it.
A few moments pass by and Thank God he gave another chance, the worship leader asked us to shake one another's hand and wish them "God Bless", so i got the courage to shake her hand and talk to her, amazingly this is the first time a girl that i like actually talked to me, she even replied and ask me things. I don't know but through this i feel like there is still hope for me in a relationship but i wont be hasty and jump into that yet, I will be patient and careful not to scare the girl.
God is so amazing, i remember praying that he would guide me and change my days, he answered it. I pray he help me lift the cross of life and he did, even better he blessed me some more. How great is our God? no one on this planet would have plan out something so nice and perfect for me, no one could have understand what i was going through except Him and no one could have loved me more than him to bless me so much even though i went astray, what a awesome God we serve.
Take time off and pray in any situations, when hard times struck you, its even best to pray cause God will be there waiting to bless you and help you.
I was once blind but now i see
I was once down in sorrow but there is the sun
I was once broken but now healed
I was once lost but now am found
