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Hi, today is Thursday, praise God for Thursday.
Today i was down and out, let everything out last night, just praying to God to cleanse me and heal me and he did, in fact his presence was so strong that i could feel him hugging me and comforting me.
I was still a bit down and out all the day until recess, as usual i was sitting with one of my friend Albert eating our food and i shared with him why i am not my usual happy positive self today. I told him and he told me something that just hit me as i am writing this.
He told me look at how old we are, we are only 17 years old, we've only been on earth for 17 years and yet we feel like doing everything fast and want it now. We might not have a purpose in life right now but the purpose counts with the experience and thing we go through in our life's now and in the future.
It is true with what he said and it is very real, my generation now wants everything, see a girl you like, go for it. Want that stuff, go get it. There is never a planning or goal set in our life's that some times we miss out the more important things in life than chasing this things.
Well that all i can say for now. But today was a good day to reflect on, though i am suffering now, i should count it a blessing to suffer for God.
Hi, ok first of all this is not an emotional post, it is totally absurd and mean if you call people "EMO" and by this not to scold you guys i am doing this in a nice tone to let you people out there know, when you call somebody and "EMO", DO you know your already labeling him? Do you know your already judging him? Do know your only making things worse? well now you know, so please be kind to the hurts one, dont call them names but talk to them and hug them, show them that somebody cares.
Ok that's all, now back to my post, what do i mean when i title this The day i cried, the rain fell.
Well i am just going to be straight forward with this, I do cry some times, i don't know about you guys but there are times where i just need to cry it all out to feel better. Every time i cry, i feel cleansing in my heart and sometimes i don't either.
But whenever i cry, it is bound to be hold back up as we always tell our self that crying doesn't solve anything and we just keep storing up the pain inside. By this we feel our hearts begin to feel heavier everyday as if there is a black cloud over our heads.
Did you know that sometimes crying is a way God helps us clean our heart? Did you know that sometimes crying our heart out is a way God helps remove all the pain in our hearts?
So the next time you feel the pressure is too much and you need to cry it out, just cry it all out but please do it in a closed place like your room or even better get a friend to cry with you. That way you feel better and more prep to face the days ahead, well that i have to say today, till then God bless and take care.
Crying is define as the act of shedding tears as a response to an emotional state in humans.
Yes its sad but true, i don't know about all you guys out there but i am addicted to Love.
I don't know whether me have this problem but there are times when i just wish i had someone special to hug and love, yes there is always that one moment. See the biggest weakness and tough part of being a guy is you constantly have to struggle on relationships, have to be patience when you want to get a girl, must be polite, must be gentleman, must be humble.
But being a guy also have its good parts like every time we fall, the girls never cease to pick us up and dust off the dust from us and push us on in Life's challenges, we persevere, we have passion, we have strength that is never ceasing, we press on in Life's never ending struggle.
Ok back to my point, i always yearn to have this wonderful feeling, that kind of feeling that makes your heart melt, your spirit soar high and your feel like in cloud nine. The kind of feeling that you get when you have that special someone to hold on, hug, kiss, and share the special moment. All lover birds out there should know what i mean.
Though i never had the chance to experience it myself, but i can feel it in a distant, the kind of feeling that literally change your whole being. But like they all say it is just a feeling but i guess its just who i am.
I took this personality test on how is my love life, and ok i know that some times this things are inaccurate but i think it really best describes me.
It says that i am a passionate lover, i cherish every moment i spend with that special someone, i ams loyal and faithful to that special someone and i am grateful and appreciate every moment i have with that special someone and many more.
I guess that i have to be patience on Love and relationship, though it might seem like every one is getting relationship, i guess i must take it slow in order for thing to turn out right. I have to be faithful in God to guide me to the right one, hopefully this FATS will go away soon.
Well i confess and admit that i am really addicted to LOVE, it might be the one thing i am constanly trying to find in my life but it is happening like a puzzle, slowly solving the picture and revealing the picture in whole when it is done.
I regret that i did not try to start things earlier with the girl but God's timing is always perfect, only he knows whats best for me. Only he can know who that special someone is for me, you know a lot of people say that we should sit back relax and let God lead that someone special to you. I can tell you now it will never work.
You first have to take the first step by making as many new friends as possible, guy and girl.
Here is one thing i learn that we should do if we like a girl,
1) never walk up to her and tell her I LOVE YOU, you will freak out the girl and she might not like you or maybe even know you, she will probably be thinking who is this weirdo.
2) take things slow, dont rush and jump into a relationship, be patient and get to know her first, that way she will slowly gain confidence in you.
3) dont try to be around her all the time, give her some space, if not then she feels like she is being stalked.
4) be a social active guy, show her that your a fun guy to hang around with and that your are a really nice, lovable and fun guy to be with.
5) BE PATIENT, i am stressing this because i have friends who keep asking me to faster get the girls phone number and faster form a relationship, yeah it might work but i will slowly and surely lose her, remember point 2 and of course you find it easier to communicate and interact with each other in the long run to come.
6) Be patient in hard times, dont pounce on the girl and let all hell break loose on her, when you are in a bad mood, take time to cool down and dont whin to them, when she is in a bad mood, this is a good time to cheer her up and maybe win her heart or prove to her you are the right gujy to be with her, this part is going to be alot more harder than me saying it.
7) Hygiene, cleaniness and manners. Keep yourself clean and smelling good, dont put too much deo, you dont want the girl to faint, make sure you bath proparly.
well that is all i can think of for now, so after seeing this, yes i am addicted to LOVE and want a girlfriend but i've got to be a better person first and prepare myself now for the love of my life in the future.
Trust me when i say, God knows the best thing in life for us and he has already prepare the best for us, you think the girl infront of you now is the most perfect but guess what if that relationship with the first girl does not work, you break up, you complain to God.
But believe me if you are patient and faithful, God will grant you that special someone and you will surely say waoo she more then i expected her to be. You see , i am sure you will say that God really knows what is best for us.
Thats all i have for now, God bless your days ahead, take care and dont forget to SMILE and be HAPPY and JOYFUL in the Lord.
"I though i knew what is best for me but turns out God plans my future thus making him know what best for me better than i do."
Hello and welcome again to my lovely blog, today i found out something very true in life again. It is ALWAYS GOOD even when it sucks at times.
I have feeling there will be people not agreeing with what i am saying but hear me out in this one.
Yes today is Friday, i was so happy cause i can finally get to chill back a bit after the super duper crazy tiring energy week. Today was as a usual day, woke up, did my quiet time, had a nice breakfast, a yummy half-boil egg, a piece of bread with butter and of course my favorite Vico with oats, emmm filling and nutritional.
So i was happy as usual, with a smile on my face when i hoped on my transport and went school, then the day started with the ringing of the school bell, kkkrrrriiinggg... my first few periods was ok and i was wide awake but after recess, i felt like a dead beat, i was so so tired, i can just sleep with myself standing up, ok a bit too dramatic but none the less school finally ended, YEAH now it is time for C.F, I love my school C.F eventhough there is always like 2 or 3 form 5's and a pool size worth of other forms' might be overwhelming but at least its good to see C.F growing steadily with the younger generations.
Then my mind today again was quite upset, dont know why it just came about, maybe cause of boredom and tireness, then the girl came to my mind, i haven spoken to her in like centuries and i though why not today i give it a try and talk to her cause we've been letting life have its course. So i went C.F earlier today to help my friend carry the super gigantic speakers but dont worry this new and imporved kenneth got some muscles, so piece of cake.
What was funny is that when we bought the speakers to the third floor of one of our school block, our teacher told us that we are moving to the hall, i was ok with it but my friend was having that face like huh now only you tell after 6 fligths of stairs, never the less we manage to carry it to the hall. After that he went to set up the P.A and i well was just whistling away, stoning and dont know what to do, then i saw that the usher needs more help, so i went to usher, went to tell people where C.F is and greet people to C.F
Hand by hands pass by me but the only one i was anticipating was the hand of the girl but you know what, Yes I did Not get to see her or even shake her hand, so i was ok, cool as a cucumber went to C.F and we had high praise, wonderful worship. Half way through we were singing and i started to look around, ahem konon neck need stretching, then i saw her. ahhhh, ok a bit to dramatic again but that did not stop me from worshiping God, i was more concentrated on the worship then her. So that was C.F, then we all went home, aww i hate leaving C.F
On my way out i went to take my yellow koku card, then there she was right beside, we were battling through the hordes of form 2,3 and 4 student, wahh they were like pirahnas swarming the little table with the cards, as i was going to reach out for the form 5 cards, though i help her take as well, out of nowwhere this hand came out and grab it first. I followed the hand and there i stare her straight in the eye and she smile and told me my card was there, so me being a GENTLEman, said thank you and took my card.
I faster took the card and at first she did not want to start a conversation and i was like not good, she must be upset i did not talk to her for so long, but then i continued anyway, we talk and talk until she went home. Said goodbye and waved to her.
Ok i forgot to clear the air first, yes it sounds like i am still trying to get her but i am taking it slow by being friends first. Ok clear done
Went back home and ate lunch, by then i was so tired and wanted to take a nap but i had to do my work out, so i got some minutes of rest and started to work out later, the usual sit up's, push up's, lifting weight's and jogging but the best part was when i was going to jog.
Today i had to do more than usual cause yesterday night i ate a bit too much. So instead of my usual 10, i plan to go 15 rounds because of time restrain, I could not do 20 rounds, the point is i would have not even manage 10 rounds my body would be aching like crazy, but today i felt great and fit to go 15 rounds especially when i was going uphill, ohh this is the first time i did not slow down so much. Was satisfied with my work out, FATS be GONE.
So my point is, you see the day i went through, so bless and lovely day, WHY?
1) eventhough i was super duper monkey king kong chili padi hot like crazy bigger than bigfoot tired, i still manage to gain my strenght to worship my Father in heaven.
2) I got to talk to the girl even though she did not want at first but we got back to talking like friends again soon.
3) I got to work out to the max today even with my tire body that is completely not fit and sweat the fats off.
4) I had such a happy day, no fuss, no depression, no anger, just Joy and peace in the Lord.
See Life is always good cause God meant it to be that way, it is us men who make it worse.
Maybe you can try these one day, dont start to complain over problems but just let life has it course, for that one day, try enjoying what you are doing and what your day is with friends and maybe a specail someone and i tell you, you will see things to become better for you, things would take a sudden twist and start looking up.
LIFE is always GOOD even when there is up's and down's because God made this day to be GOOD for EVERYBODY.
"Dear heavenly father in heaven, i pray Lord that whoever has read this blog will understand what i am tryin to mean and speak to them. I pray Lord that if anyone reaing this post is lost, depressed or even just upset over the day they spent, i pray Lord you show them what you've showed me, unconditional Love and everlasting Joy. I also want to pray Lord that those who want to have a good week ahead that they might try to look at the brigther side of life and enjoy what you have in stored for them, AMEN."
Yup as it says LIFE IS NEVER PERFECT BUT BEAUTIFUL.
Now i know i am getting a lot of huh? and i don't know what he saying? But hear or see me on this one, it is by far the best quote i can think off, better than the rest before.
I came to realize when i started to post this, I am so tired cause of the week. Phew can literally sleep all i wan but cant because banyak homework and assignment to finish up. Well today is thursday, wohooo tomorow friday, got CF, clap clap clap. I love my CF.
So more about today, as usual GOD is good all the time and all the time GOD is good. Praise and glory be to GOD because today i was having quite and emotional battle today, trying very hard to fight back dedpression as usual, strubbon little thing, wont die off wan. Then add on all the boring lessons today, i can die of boredom and depression, but thank God for friends, we were literally laughin the whole day today, making jokes and playing a fool.
Then again my sad feelings came up, WHY cant the girl talk to me? that was what keep coming up to my mind because i haven talk to her in 3 weeks, give or take. On top of that, seeing myself again, i look back to the past again, hate all this flash backs and memory, wish i can delete it but oh well I somehow manage to fend it off but i was super duper tired.
Looking back i realise one thing today, i somehow realise Life is never perfect, things never seem to go your way or the way you want it to, like i say i want to talk to the girl but things just get in the way, want to have a happy day, turned out gloomy for a while. Dont wan so much homework, got quite a sum, essay...essay...essay...EST.. oh man. Want to take a map today, can only afford 20 minutes cause banyak homework to complete.
Well it might seem like it was a tough day, like i say Life is never perfect but it is beautiful, wanna know why?
1) At least the girl and i still smile and wave to each other, still friends,Good.
2) Class very boring, but interesting facts and fooling around to brighten up class, i am the class clown by the way.
3) Had a great fellowship with friends today, just laughing the whole day long
4) Manage to be happy for half a day in my life.
5) God bless us with a nice weather, no need to sweat like a PIG, ahaha
6) Friends are seem to be getting closer to me now, Praise and glory be unto God.
7) The new me changes everything that happens around me.
8) Got to jog and sweat, hopefully the middle kingdom(big tummy) will slowly shrink down
9) Never got scolding from teachers at all today, my school teachers are emo people wan, but pray God blas...ahem bless and love them too.
10) Manage to cheer some people up, made their days, made them happy.
See what i mean, God bless me so banyak, it overflows, the trouble and suffering is there, yes but look at the blessings and good side of life. Now you know what i mean when i say LIFE is never PERFECT but BEAUTIFUL.
Keep this in my mind, dont look and grieve on the sorrow part of life but enjoy and thank God for the good side of life, its like a lollipop, the one with the sour powder wan, we slick off the sour part first, then comes the sweet part, same thing as Life, we must endure hardship and pain in Life but at the end there will always be something good happening to you, you just need to open up your eyes and ears to the present, Stop sulking i the past.
So the one sure formula in Life: STOP LOOKING at the PAST and ENJOY the PRESENT.
"LIFE IS NEVER PERFECT BUT BEAUTIFUL"
"Dear heavenly father, I pray that anyone who read this post will be bless seven folds for the rest of their week, I pray that if the person reading this post is going through depression or having a hard time, I pray now in the name of Jesus, set them free!!! Bless their soul, heart, mind and body, may your love shower upon them like never before, let them cry their sorrows out and look to you as their solution, I pray that every person who read this post will enjoy the rest of their day to the fullest and I pray again Lord bless them seven folds for the rest of their days, IN JESUS NAME I PRAY, AMEN."
HOW TO MAKE YOUR DAY HAPPIER? this will be the common questions people ask on a gloomy day. Well i have found out a few ways that might work but of course it is not 100% proven to work on everybody.
Well lets have the first scenario:
It is Monday, your a guy, nothing much to expect in school(can replace with own place of conduct), single and don't seem to see any good in this day.
In seeing this, HOW TO MAKE YOUR DAY HAPPIER. Easssyyy,
1) kick that Monday blues habit, slap it off and tell yourself its Monday, i should start the day off with a happy heart.
2) Try to list out some interesting things to do like getting to know a girl or guy, doing good deeds, going for sports.
3) If you are a christian, Pray for God's blessing and joy to be upon you, Pray for a different heart and mind. Pray for the everlasting Joy and Love of God.
Ok if you think none of that can work, then there is one thing that you need to change to MAKE YOUR DAY HAPPIER.
CHANGE YOU MINDSET, STOP LOOKING IN THE PAST AND ENJOY THE PRESENT.
You know a friend told me that everytime we look at the past, we tend to miss out the good things in the present. SO kick the past away and enjoy what we have now, yes sometime it sucks, but just live with what you got.
Stop the depression from taking a hold of your life. everyone was meant to lead a happy and joyfull life, Everyone is blessed by God with a great day, enjoy it.
WE ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE, MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT.
WE ONLY CAN LIVE THE DAYS ONCE, MAKE FULL USE OF IT, LIVE IT OUT.
WE WAKE UP, IT IS ANOTHER DAY, A NEW CHAPTER, FORGET THE PAST AND MOVE ON.
Hello and welcome to my blog once again, here i am again with yet another interesting and meaningful post, not emo one, i have changed.
Its another day in another week of another month of another year but this year was my year of challenge and also victories in life. As you all know i am a changed man now, i am happy and grateful in everything i have and i am very positive minded now.
This week however proves to be one of the more interesting and challenging week compared to the rest. This week i face yet again another challenge in life, I got a revisit by the demon of depression, yes he was back but thank God he was there to help me slain it, although he manage to get a hold of me for an hour or so, God once again saved me by being there for me.
This week the challenges that i face was to be wise in everything I do especially when i have an argument with a sibling, it takes a lot more humility and humbleness to calm down and think twice before speaking, now that is wisdom. Also, i had some problems in school, thought the pressure and stress was high, i manage to look to God for shelter from the bombardment of the world. Another thing is with GIRLS, yes i made a stupid mistake by trying to find a relationship, and it is very funny cause i can imagine Adrians voice right now probably saying:"See God sudah cakap jangan, you still want, Ok now he let you try, you sow what you reap..." HAHA no offence adrian if your read this, your still a great leader and bro in christ.
Somehow this girl was playing with me , when i started off by getting to know her, it was ok, she like me and i like her, She was very open, she laughed, i laughed, could see something was going on but nothing can beat this, I CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND GIRLS, they are so confusing and weird, no offence. First we were so close and she was so open to me and getting closer to me but all of the sudden she backs off me, and i was ok, its alright no problem, some space is good for the both of us but its very confusing as in What is she thinking about? and How does she want this to go? So i very sad, confused and lost but yet again thank God for mom's and of course his glorious wisdom, my mom manage to solve my problem, very easy she say, now the girl is playing hard to get, so reverse psychology, you do the same thing, back off and give her some space, she dont want to talk, fine. Just smile and wave but dont shun her off, it would be rude, in a way you may make her miss you. And i was like, so thats how things go, interesting.
After seeing, i plan to study on girls after graduating from psychology, it would be both benefical and interesting, we are both the same species just different gender but yet we dont seem to think the same and act the same, interesting?Bottom line, i am great right now cause deep down i know i am not going to get a relationship, i am just going to be friends, which by the way is much more cool and who say single is drag? Being SINGLE is SEXY, haha, bit too much.
Anyways moving on, today i was so filled with dissappointment for failing God and of course many more problems but God is always sovereign and great, I prayed for forgiveness and he did forgive and ask him to help me go back to the root of true joy that is him. And he did help me by blessing me with jogging, yes jogging with a childhood friend name Lee Yew Leung, a great guy, he teaceh me so much and i did'nt know so many interesting things about jogging and the methods and so son but the greatest part when he decided to help me push the limits, instead of my daily rounds of 10 rounds, he challenge me to go 20 rounds.
So i said yes, no harm right, boy was it tiring but the best part was that he was there to cheer me on and guide me, which was fantastic. He standing and jogging beside me is a 15 year old kid who is an althletic by the way, guiding me how to jog and teaching me, i felt great to be humble and learn from him. After the 20 rounds, i was happy because finally i achieve something that i wuold never have accomplish in my life. Joy was there as i left home and the last words he said really make me tear cause none of my friends would say this :"Ok see you ken, it was a PLEASURE jogging with YOU." I was so touch to know that at least i made someones day and know that someone still acknowledge my presence, not to say all my friends dont, just that this things rarely happen to me.
After going home, i decided to tag along with my mom in her daily walk at the park for protection prupose, so there was my mom, speed walking around the field as i take a slow and comfortable and was what beast is that i felt Jesus walking beside me, How COOL is that? Imagine JESUS right beside me, talking to me, i felt so blessed and happy. Today was such a blessed day.
In conclusion, though there was many trials and challenges, though i fell many times, God was there to forgive and forget and guide me on, He even blessed me, what and awesome God we serve, He love me so much, he even send true joy and happiness to me, he even make things appear a lot easier in my life now, he blessed me so much that i cant contain it anymore, the song one day keeps playing in my head. such and indescribable, wonderful and loving God we serve.
"SO BLESSED I CANT CONTAIN IT,
SO MUCH I WANT TO GIVE IT AWAY,
YOUR LOVE TAUGHT ME TO LIVE NOW,
YOU ARE MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME"
