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Today i was watching in youtube and i stumbled upon this video titled "How to say I love you."
Its a short film but it has a meaning to it, it starts off with a lonely girl sitting in a bench in the prk, reading a book, in tears getting engrossed in the book then a young chap with a camera turns up ans takes a picture of her and then there were alot of talking, cant tell you everything, go see it for yourselfs, here is the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l-84anmYGv4
What really made me feel so amuse by this video is how the young chap over and over again tries to send a clear message to the girl that i like you and I love you but he does not do it directly in speech, he takes it one at a timeuntil the girl realizes that hey this dude cares and likes me. Ain't we all doing the same thing in todays world, one way or another we are telling people subliminal message "I LOVE YOU" but it all amends to the other sex and their willingness to be open but the young chap was very frank and truthful to her, he as open as well but i guess the main reason i found this video interesting is how the two manage to get together just by being themselves and never giving up (the guy was more of this attribute as the girl keeps asking him to go away in a nice way)
I guess its clear in today's world that everyone and anyone would want to be in love with the other gender, I would. There lies in the problem of how hard it is in today society where everything is commercialize and everything must be perfect.
How to say I LOVE YOU, its up to you and how you are going to get the other persons attention but nothing ever goes our way but we got to give a try.
Another thing true about this video is that love changes everything, The girl said you literally know nothing of me, he said one thing that was truthful and real, i know you could change my life.
HELLO People sorrry i haven been blogging for a long long long long.....time.
Been very busy with work (yeah right!) i've been so busy with GOD! going camps meeting new friends and just having fun and finding peace in GOD.
One camp really was awesome, the best camp in my whole life is PPBC YOUTH CAMP!
The camp place we were in was very relaxing except the hill climbing stairs to the guys dorm. The camp site was so peaceful, it really felt like God was there to bring peace to my mind,heart and soul. I was so caught with the world recently, yeah after losing so much weight and looking more handsome(ahem sorry i know its very perasaan but its the truth, hehe), I was so so caught up with what the world wants from me, 6packs, tight aps, skinner waist, nicer hair, i was once again caught in the dilemma of my love life, i've rememebed back all my past failures, how i never seem to be able to get a girlfriend ( man girls are reallytough to impress!) If it was not for the camp,i would not have found inner peace from all the burdens i carry all this while. My heart and mind felt so peaceful and in rest, my life seem more peaceful and calm, ahhh.
Other than that, i have been at home, just resting and relaxing, spending time with friends but its the month of january and many of my friends have went to college or NS, man makes me really wish i was in ns but oh well God plans are better than mine.
Learning to drive was FUN. i never though i would see the day i bring the car out on the road, yeah yesterday was my first time driving on the road. My instuctor was a handful, nags alot but it was good critisism,really learn alot from him. We did simple u-turns, how to handle gear control and especially on traffic, see driving in traffic you know, of course i am very kind, let people cut me and one thing my instructor does not like being cut but he nag again and told me one important fact, if you hesitate thats when you lose control. Just drive and control, dont stop and hesistate, people will give way, dont worry.Overall he is a very good instructor, tomorow got another lesson with him and hopefully i will do better than yesterday, got naged alot and really stressed him out, no wonder why his hair is turning white already.
Well thats all i've got so far but one thing great about the holidays is the time i have with God, so much better daily quiet time with him , last time its always rush rush rush, now its take your time and make sure you find God and be complety awe in his presence.
Ok that's all i have to write, i am doing very good now although some days are like augh boring but i will always seem to find something to occupy myself. If your wondering what i've been doing all this time after Spm, well i've been going to 1U alot, i mean like super duper alot in the month of december.I know the road to 1U so well now. Alrity ciaos!
S.P.M is just a breeze, S.P.M aiyah nothing wan lah, S.P.M is not that hard one, chill. S.p.m what is that? and etc. This is what i hear every time i question my seniors of their past SPM experience, somehow they always say it easy but now as my heart beats at a faster rate, as my breath gets heavier, as the sweat rolls down my face, as i begin to be big eyed the fact that ITS coming and it is my turn now to sit for SPM in just three weeks from now.
Spm is always easier said than done, and i can see why my seniors always make it seem easier because they have passed it and they are being kind not to scare us by saying wah Spm so hard man, you going to die from sleepless nights, frustrations, regrets and failures, you got to sacrifice so much just to pass this one government exam. I guess if someone said that to me, i will straight away panic. Yes Spm is a government exam and most people will be worried or stress because we have so much topics, lessons, subjects, exercise to cover and worse of all is that we don't know what to expect to be coming out for the Spm test especially history exam, where most people dread over 20 chapters of facts that can come out as a question from anywhere.
I myself personally have been studying hard to make sure i meet the grades especially God's grades. There are times where i feel that my faith is being tested as to how well i trust my Big Daddy up there to guide me through this examination. Honestly saying, i have times where i am so worried and stress out that i feel like giving up, there are times where i see myself answering a blank paper especially history essay but again God intercedes and say "O you of little faith" and this hits me on my head as i have not been depending on God to guide me through this Spm examination.
"O you of little FAITH!!" and its quite true that when circumstances seems against us or they is a hard and challenging road in front of us, we tend to panic and forget about our ultimate solution, GOD! I am not saying that we are condemned for not having trust God but God is in a way trying to reestablish that Faith towards him cause we sometimes tend to stray from God and forget about him, so he needs to put in a dire situation where we try everything to solve our problems until we run out of solution and realize we forgot all about God, our Father in heaven who can solve all things Big and Small.
One thing God also reminded me about in this period of time is that HE is the alpha and omega, THIS IS MY FATHERS WORLD! One night i was so worried until i lost sense of myself. So being a restored man of God, yes i have fallen but through God's grace i was and am restored, "the prodigal son". So i prayed to God,while just worshiping and praising him, the song "this is my fathers world" started to play in my head and my Mp3, coincidence, i don't think so, the song reminded me that our Father in heaven create the earth and us, so He is like the ultimate secret to success in exams and life, why should i worry? When I have God the creator, alpha and omega, the first and the last to see me through Spm with me in his Loving arms, to make sure that he plans out a way that we will go through it triumphantly and with success.
Another thing God showed me was that i am not the only one who is going to sit for Spm. Many, billions, trillions have sat it before me and it is not a CRIME, IT IS NOT EMBARRASSING to seek my seniors and mentors for guidance on how they face Spm? IN this time, What did they do to have that reassurance and confidence to pass with flying colors. I have to thank all those who have shown me support and given me some very good tips, but the best of all is one sms that i got from my senior that just sat for Spm last year. She reminded me that she went through it, her brothers went through it and they all did well with God guiding them and bringing them through it, so God will never abandon you or forsake you, if he can help the people before me through Spm, why cant he now? At this moment i broke down to know that my faith was so diminished that again i forgot that God is our creator, our all seeing Father, he will NEVER EVER leave you out in the dark, he will always be there to see you through it for good.
No a doubt that i am going to sit for Spm soon, time to buck up and work hard but also pray and seek God even much harder than ever before. There will be many things that i have to sacrifice in order to do well for Spm but it will be worth at the end of the road, the nights staying up to study, cutting down on basketball and leisure time, but it will all be worth it at the end because i have God to look onto for help, guidance and support.
One common question that i hear from the streets these days is "Aiyooh i am darn scared that i wont do well, i am scared i will fail lah dude." Yeah sometimes i also feel like in that situation but with God by my side, i will not FAIL, i SPEAK AGAINST THAT SAYING OF FAILURE because God loves his child too much to see him fail. And A's is not everything, its only something, we got to remember that no matter what results that i and others will be getting is God's plan from the start and he will make a way when there seems to be no way, all you have to do is to TRUST AND OBEY.
Well thats all i have for now. Please pray for me as i will sitting for Spm, pray for my brethen and sisters also cause it is not only me who will be going through mountains of challenges but also many others. Your prayers will much be appreciated, and of course lets also not forget those sitting for STPM as well.
Well today i was using the computer and i stumbled upon the music video of Shakira whenever wherever, then my mind started to drift into my own world where i wish that i would met a girl that was as pretty and beautiful as shakira and of course as fun as her, seeing that girl dancing to the song and seducing me, but POOF! all that was just a fantasy and that got me thinking how really amazing we humans are.
Looking up the dictionary, reality means "the state of things as they actually exist". Reality is fact, it is a reality that the world is a beautiful place, it is a reality that you have a loving family, it is a reality that you have a relationship, it is a reality that you are working now, it is a reality that we are living in Malaysia, it is a reality that we all have hard times, it is a reality that we all strive to be better in life. Reality is a very scary stage to be in if you ask me personally but we have to be in it, bottom line we have no choice but to face reality because everyday and everything is a reality, ( I hope you know what i mean, if you don't, please give me a call and i will explain it to you. 017-3612220) Let me give you a scenario, one day you are working and earning a living but you wish you can not work but still earn money, but reality steps in and tells us that with earning comes working. For the benefit of those studying, everyday you study and next thing you know its SPM or PMR or major exams, and we wish that we could NOT study but still get good results but the reality is that we have to study to excel, see what i mean. REALITY is everyday everything in everyway of our life's.
Fantasy on the other hands means a situation imagined by an individual or group, which does not correspond with reality but expresses certain desires or aims of its creator. For short fantasy is a place of our day dreams. Fantasy will always be with us, Why do we fantasize? Well that easy, we fantasize because we have a desire for that something or someone but we know it cant never happen or be obtain, therefore we fantasize to satisfy our inner desires.
Fantasy is an addiction to all of us because we cannot deny we have never day dream or go into thoughts. Fantasy is a very nice and happy place, it is a place of satisfaction, it is a place of your souls desire answered, it is a place of our wildest dreams but fantasy can be a place of triggering self pity, depression, lustful desires and etc, rarely it can trigger excellence. Let me give you an example, a teenage boy sees this pretty and beautiful girl, not a doubt his fantasy would be to have a relationship with her but sometimes our 'Man Brain' goes out of control and lustful thoughts starts to fly in.
Reality, a painful truth in life. Fantasy, a place of inner desires satisfied. Reality....Fantasy..... We live in both of them and they both can be a dangerous state to be in, facing reality is harsh and often it kills us. Fantasy is a place of our desires we enjoy being in, but the truth hurts in the end to know its all a lie.
Somehow i find reality to be helpful at times to wake us up but i also find fantasies to be enjoyable at times but there must be limits ( Guys you know what i mean). We all wish that our fantasy can come true and i am here to say IT CAN but of course it must be something logic like getting a good living or having a relationship, these can be accomplish by working hard because reality says with earning comes working but fantasies like flying and being like a superhero, let it just be a fantasy as it is.
Reality and fantasy, these two did not came to be by accident but God the almighty created them. Fantasy is to satisfy our desires once in a while or in simple terms can be a kick start for us, like a goal in life. Reality is there to stop us times of thinking unreasonable, reality is there to wake us up of our fantasy at times. See how amazing God put these tow together, Fantasy to bring about dreams, Reality to keep it in check.
Well i have one advice for all of us, DO NOT LET fantasies bring you down, let it be a challenge to you, let it be a challenge to accomplish that REASONABLE AND SENSIBLE desire you want. Don't give up so fast, you want to have that girl, start working hard, do your homework, go workout get fit, look good and you know the rest Guys, you want that car, study hard get a good job, work hard earn enough and buy that car. NEVER SAY I GIVE UP, always say I WILL GET (insert desires like that car that girl and etc), fantasy is there to be a jump start, make full use of it. remember reality is there to keep your fantasies in check not to bear you down.
Well thats all i have for now, till my nest interesting thing come about. Take care and God bless.
Pain, in dictionary terms means is a typical sensory experience that may be described as the unpleasant awareness of a noxious stimulus or bodily harm. Individuals experience pain by various daily hurts and aches.
Yes its a true fact that we a very complex being has a sure point of weakness, one thing that would tear us down and bring a hurtful teaching. This pain cannot be seen in the flesh like a wound after falling, the scars does not heal like a scratch wound or inflammation, this scar remain forever in our heart and time comes when it will bleed again, again and again, yes this pain is the inner wound we all experience. Rejection, failures in studies, failure in love, failure in different areas, relationship problems, disappointment's, rage, depression, sorrow, the silent tears that hides it self in us.
We all experience this in our life, we the human race have this common pain yet we don't seem to learn not to inflict it to others,instead of helping we make it worse, instead of being concern, we reject out of fear of being too concern to a depressed person, scared that they will just get themselves in a whole lot of trouble. How utterly ridiculous we can be sometime and i am not saying i don't do it myself sometimes, we cant deny that we all have at least done something hurtful to someone else either consciously or not.
The funny thing is how come when we try to help that friend in need, sometimes we don't know that all they want is an earpieces for just a while and not a microphone to point out the obvious mistake they already know they are facing. Its good we are at least trying to help that someone but please don't tell them cliche thing, they already know it all, just sit and listen, if need be give them a crying shoulder or a hug, cause thats what they really need in this kind of time.
another clear thing is how we tend to make matters worse sometimes and i can be a witness to that, once i had some problems with the 'bird n bees' ahemm, not the little brother down there but relationship. I was baffled how come i tend to lose out the girls i meet, so i went into a period of disappointment, my friends were very kind by showing me support, trying to comfort me and show me the way. But what made me very upset is after that he himself went to get a girlfriend and starts to show off in front of me, i don't blame him for getting a relationship, its great he found a partner but knowing my situation, he did not have to proudly show off his girl, its ok to showoff but not right in my face because this inflicts an unintended wound, your giving me a clear message that YOU SUCK AT THIS, look how easily i can get a girlfriend. I don't have a grudge against him but this makes me want to be better than him.
My whole point is we all know the pain that we go through, cant we help each other to get through this stage of hurt and suffering, cant we help these people? Cant we help them with their problems? then we all can live life peacefully and happily.
Do you the pain is unseen but it has a great effect on that someone, like i say it can even kill someone. This pain is already icon by the generation as a 'X' sign or commonly made famous by the band three day grace as one-X.
This must be one of the post where i will share something i've learned from God the HARD and PAINFUL WAY. The main reason is that if he does not break my heart then i will never learn and understand his teachings.
Well frankly i am not here to write just another post but i am writing this based on my life experience and its not just a story about another guy but a LIFE story.
I was experiencing dryness and again i got lost in the crossroads of life, huh funny how i always end up in another cross road after just such a short time. Anyways yes i was very down spiritually and emotionally and physically, i was not rejoicing in the holidays instead i was mourning, haizz emo kenneth again, hrmphh no good. That was the one thing that baffled me, instead of enjoying what i have that is one week off of school, wee, i was just sitting there and mourning over stupid little things, man i am so weird but of course everything i go through has a lesson behind it.
Why was i mourning and feeling down? Well cause yet again these 'voices' came and slap me to tell me to look at what i have and literally pulling me down and tell me that i am a nobody, questioning me How come God has not give you what you have asked for? How come he ha not answered your prayer that is your heart desires? I was shock as yes its true, all the questions end up being answered yes He has not answered anything, so i went into mourning, knowing no hope, and whats worse was i am suppose to be getting ready for a spiritual battle soon with the church and here i was a soldier of God wearing down my armor and quitting, right even before the spiritual battle has begun, losing hope when i know that the battle has been already won because we have God by our side.
Then i went no mourning the whole week then on friday night thanks to my youth group, as they were praying and just worshiping God, making sure they are ready for the PJpd (Petaling Jaya Prayer Day) on saturday. I just could not praise God anymore cause i have lost all my hope and faith in him. Then later i was so sad that i went on breaking down outside of the prayer circle, i was just weeping and asking God what has happen to me, what have i become? Then they called me back and prayed for me and WAOO OUR GOD IS REALLY AN AWESOME GOD!!! he forgive me of all my sins, and cured me, bringing me back to his arms again and just taking me back like the prodigal son, its was very touching and life changing.
The reason why i felt so lost and alone, thinking that the Lord has abandon and not answering my prayer is because I was too far ahead of him, he is at point 1, i am already gang huo want to go ahead to point 2, so he has to pull me back to point 1 again, again i forgot to yield my all to him, again i failed by taking the drivers whell and driving ahead in full speed, now thats where patient comes into practice, we have to be patient with God with whatever he provides us with.
Also i learned that God did not answered my prayers because i am not ready for whatever i have prayed for, because i have not put into practice what i have learnt from the word and thus if answering my prayer just like that and seeing that i am not ready for it, it will just kill me.
So two things to learn whenever you fell like this situation i am in:
1)Always be patient and strong, shut out the voices of the devil that tell you things that are not true because you are the SON of GOD, he knows you by name and he has great plans for you even if you feel that you have nothing, OHH believe you have everything that is IN GOD.
2) Slap yourself awake and start being a christian wherever you are, be a shining light and be a cheerful person or whatever God has called you to be and whatever you have prayed for will come to you in time, trust me on this one. *winks*
I came across many people not you nice people but others who tell me that BGR is no good, its a waste of time, its bad for the young.
I been thinking that people should not look at BGR(boy-girl relationship) in a bad way only, there is always two ways at looking at things, take for example TV, the good thing is it keeps you entertained and up to date with the latest news, the bad thing its addicting and you must filter what tv shows to you.
Well same thing as looking at BGR, there is two ways at looking at it, well let me start off with the BAD part since everyone i've come across not you nice readers tell me its so called "BAD" True BGR is also bad, ok i hate using te word bad, let me say this again. True BGR is not good for us, there is a few bad point about it. Well, from my point of view, not following others, here goes:
1) It can end up being the main cause of depression
2) It requires commitment and responsibility
3) It can be addictive to some like those lovely dovy times
4) It may affect ur studies, maybe cannot study cause thiking too much about the girl, haha
5) Sometimes there are little fights which are sometimes memorable and sometimes hurting
Well that is all that i can think off but please forgive me if any of these is not right as i am looking it at my point of view.
Moving on BGR also have some good in it, let us see:
1) You understand the opposite sex better
2) You learn about responsibility
3) You learn about patience and being the man
4) You become more appreciative of things around you but mostly HER
5) You somehow feel happy to know that there is someone special there for you
6) You are happy to know someones love and care for you and vice versa
7) You become a changed man
8) It might become the motivation to become a better person
9) You understand how to handle people better
and many more but of course again, this is from my point of view, so please forgive me if there is anything wrong.
Well then i hope this can make you think a while that you cant always look at things in a bad ways except those that can kill you like smoking, alcohol, sex before marriage, all these bad thing. they are BAD from the beggining.
Always remember, we can be very easily manipulated, if one day someone came up to you and told you that that guy VERY bad, no good. You mihgt be saying oh yeah i did not know and then your go on gossiping about bad things which he never did or is going to do. So next time before just falling for people's saying, stop and think, look at things in two ways, find out the truth behind it like i did.
We should all practice this. LOOK THINGS AT TWO WAYS.
