Exams are over and of course teachers has begun to show us of our hard work that payed off in our exam and of course there is always the same cycle of those who did well, average and not so well and i am one who has all three, haha xP
But to me i am alright if I get a fail, it does not matter to me how badly or good i did, the main thing i am satisfied that i at least try my best and worked hard for this exam, those sleepless nights must have payed off, actually it was just sleeping later only =P
However and no matter what results we obtain my dear classmates of 6Bb/Bm, just know that this is just a gauge for us to see how well we are doing in our subjects, to see whether or not we are keep up with our studies, to see whether it is time to get serious and catch up or to maintain the momentum we have.
One thing we all have to understand is that Failure is ALWAYS an OPTION, yes it is very true failure will always be a part of our life, it is only how you deal with that failure that makes it either a painful or fruitful past.
I can stand here and share I am a FAILURE in life too, but not always tag on my forehead A FAILURE excluding the emotional times. I have gone through alot of failures in life, you name it from studies to relationships to work to personal to family and many more, fail fail fail, no one likes to hear that word, everybody hates it and its not wrong to hate that word. The dictionary quotes failure as
The state or condition of not meeting a desirable or intended objective, and may be viewed as the opposite of success.
Nobody likes to fail because we are always driven to succeed to achieve that great feeling of satisfaction, meeting our desires and feeling high and on cloud nine BUT when we fail, we feel like a loser and nothing seems to work out for us, we really degrade ourself.
Failure will always be there, but if we deal with it and use that failure, learn from it and use it as a advantage in life for us. In other words, those who experience alot of failure in life are those who understand life alot, learn to appreciate life, learn to be humble and many other things but the main point is these are the people who will ultimately succeed in life later on and become a great man or woman for others.
So don't take your failures so hard dear friend, go through that emotional roller coaster as much as you want, when your done with it, its time to move on and learn from that failure but most of all we must motivate ourself to do better than before, to try our best even more.
I can share with you to this day, i have had alot of failures in life in terms of fair or unfair failure and i always question my faith and my God as to why i have to go through all these failures, hard work which in the end takes only one wrong move to waste it ending in ULTIMATE FAILURE! And i always dread the pass failures, how i did not met my desires, satisfactions, needs and many more BUT
If it were not for these failures in life, i would not be the Kenneth your know and see today, i would have learn to be humble, helpful, kind, grateful and many more which only a year of writing will finish.
FAILURE is always A HARD ROAD TO TAKE, FAILURE is always A BITTER PASS, FAILURE is HAUNTS OUR MEMORY, but FAILURE can be learn, FAILURE can be mend and heal, Learn your failure, Conquer your failure, Rid the bad and sow the good, In the end we shall taste success.
For my closing, please take your time to RELAX! Take it away Mika!
Ok i know it seems and sounds weird but its not about missing talking but miss talking with someone.
Its been sometime since we had a face to face conversation cause for a long time it was just short talks, very short talks, its like hi bye kinda thing and usually us guys are very arrogant and trying to act cool, we guys are like you wanna talk talk, you dont want to talk, i dont care BUT i cant do that, its just not me, cause somewhere inside of me really wants to talk with her again.
Its hard to start back communication because it would be awkward for both of us, its like out of the blue we suddenly start talking to each other again and of course i will be at a loss for words and topics to talk on, then it would be like the movies where there would a moment of awkward silence, just looking around cause we will be lost and confuse.
One thing i learn is that some girls are not very open like guys who at anytime would try to keep the flow going on but girls once they freak out or know your there, they would rather head for their friends and its ok because you cant blame her if she is scared or confuse, normal human reaction but i really want to talk with her again, it would be nice to have a conversation again.
Its never gonna be easy and of course there will be more efforts and trying to do but i will have to be patience and like a friend of mine told me there must be a point to start and you need to start in a group conversation.
As much as i miss and really want to just talk with her again, there are barriers i must respect and rules to abide by but one things for sure i got to be confident and not so negative towards myself, trust in my confidence and self esteem and of course we must first learn to love ourself before we can love others.
Sometimes I look at my own face And I don't know who I am I see a face of everyone I know Buried underneath my skin
I don't want to be like them I want to crawl back in
Its hard to think of anything I haven't heard before I hear these voices in my head It could be mine but I'm not sure I hear their trying to be who I think they should be Why won't they leave me alone I can't deny it I try to fight it But I'm losing control
I don't want to be like them I want to crawl back in
Don't want to lose my innocence Don't want the world second guessing at my heart Won't let your lies take a piece of my soul Don't want to take your medicine I want to crawl back in
Sometimes I lie Sometimes I crawl Sometimes I feel like I want to die
I don't want to be like them I want to crawl back in
Don't want to lose my innocence Don't want the world second guessing at my heart Won't let your lies take a piece of my soul Don't want to take your medicine I want to crawl back in
