My best friend gave me the best advice He said each day's a gift and not a given right Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind And try to take the path less traveled by That first step you take is the longest stride
If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last Leave old pictures in the past? Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day? What if, what if, if today was your last day?
Against the grain should be a way of life What's worth the price is always worth the fight Every second counts 'cause there's no second try So live like you're never living twice Don't take the free ride in your own life
If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past? Donate every dime you had?
And would you call those friends you never see? Reminisce old memories? Would you forgive your enemies? And would you find that one you're dreaming of? Swear up and down to God above That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?
If today was your last day Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart? You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes 'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life Let nothing stand in your way 'Cause the hands of time are never on your side
If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past? Donate every dime you had?
And would you call those friends you never see? Reminisce old memories? Would you forgive your enemies? And would you find that one you're dreaming of Swear up and down to God above That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?
Yeah the weekend is nearing again but when i think of it. Its just another big disappointment because I am missing out some relax and enjoyment time.
Its been three weeks or more since i hit the cinema's to catch a single movie especially transformers 2 which i've been dying to watch since the premier and now there is just so much more to catch, harry potter, ice age and many more and the saddest thing is i would have to miss it one way or another, its either i have some errands to clear, church things to do or there is no one to teman me to go watch together, haizzz the stress
And people always ask me why am i always wanting a relationship and this is one of the apparent reason because sometimes when friends aren't there. You just want the one special person to share this moments with,you know to spice things up and make it more enjoyable and i think some of you might understand what i mean.
And here i am losing out on all the good things in life, somehow it feels so unfair,what did i do to deserve all of this pain? Having a life that is challenging, sacrificing without gaining a single thing. Somehow i feel like i cant find that group of close friends to spend time with like the group or guys and girls you see together with,they just go all out and enjoy themselfs whereelse i am tight down with so much rejection and not that they reject cause they dont want to spend time with but because they are busy and i understand and i hope it is.
The one thing now that is bothering me now is the biggest sacrifice i made, losing weight and trying to look good and yet now i am still single, its so depressing and stressful, jogging until my feet's bleed, hours on exercise's trying to get that good look, doing my best to shed off that extra pounds of fat all for what? In the end what i gain is still the same, life seems to be the same as before, almost depressing,bored,lonely at times and sad.
All the tears,blood and sweat, all the pain, all the heartache and in the end looking not the way i want it to be and not achieving my dreams.hahhh..........
Well enough of my constant whinning and sad moments because i know when i get back to my life, people are gonna read this and call me emo. I hope you all understand what its like to suffer but DONT spare yourself the pain and enjoy your happy life, i am happy for you and i hope you all are happy for me as well for anything you see fit.
Looking on the brigther side of life, i ......hmmm let me think..................car......nope......nahhh.......too....hmmm stucked here.....hold on for a while,let me think.............
Ahh yes check out this music by nickelback title If today was your last day, really meaningful lyrics.
~*Alarm ringing!!!*~ uhh what time is it? Its 6.00am in the morning, why am i awake?A That's the first question i ask myself each morning and the never failing answer would be its time to get up and get ready for school!
Right now i am currently doing form 6 in Smk Taman Sea, to those who dont know what is form 6, its tertiary education. So the story goes as i started out first at Smk Bu1 then after a month or more and a load of paper work, i got the green light to transfer to Smk Taman Sea and then upon my arrival in Taman Sea, i wanted to change my course from a science course to a Arts course. So more paperwork to be done!
But the whole reason of this blog will be revealed now.
Because i wanted to change from a science course to a arts course, the new procedure as stated by the minister of education is that i would have to sit for a course evaluation test, so its just a papaer consisiting of 160 jobs and all you had to do is to answer a yes or no to the job whether you would consider taking this job.
So after 20minutes or so i finished answering the paper, the counselor came back with the answer sheet to come out with my results. so counting and marking and more counting....Minutes later.... my results came out
Its like a personality test to see how much your scores lies on each attributes....So my results conclude one thing
The counselor looked at my results, she was puzzled and confused with my results and the first thing she said looking at my results."One thing i can say that is your unsure of what you want to do cause all this while i have students come in to do the test and they are sure with what they want to do may it be Arts or science." i was still not sure what she meant then she asked me what is my job occupation, I strated blankly at the counselor because i dont know what occupation i want when i grow up.
The counselor answered back this proves it all, your results shows that you are stuck in the middle,you dont like all the mathematics and all the teory things but you are good at maths as it shows on your spm result. On the other hand, you want a job which is sosiable and is enterprising, meaning that you are pulling yourself two ways right now.
At that moment it struck me as to how come i am feeling under so much pressure and stress recently like i am puling myself apart because deep inside myself i am struggling with my studies, I dont want to do science subject because i will not cope well, literally afraid of the subjects,on the other hand i dont want to take the arts subject because i am not into Economics,busniness, history and so on.
Th counselor continued:" Right now at this moment i can tell that you are unsuer about form 6 as well, you are undecisive of what you want to do because your stuck in the middle. You dont want the science subject because you cant cope with it, where as if your put in the Art stream, your just pushing yourself to do the subjects. I pity you if i put you in arts or science, you will push yourself so much."
After talking back and forth to cut the long story short, we both came to an agreement that going to college would be the best option for me now then there also lies the problem because i dont know what course i want to take,another crossroad. So i would have to see the college counselors to help me out again.
Crossroads, now i am stuck in it,plenty of it, i've got to explain why i want to dropout of form 6 and go to college to my parents, then i've got to choose which course i want to take.
Be grateful if you are in college or have made up your mind about your future because its not nice when your stuck in a crossroad,everything seems so unclear adn blur. Worse part of all, its your own decision to make! no one else to blame when you regret of your decision.
I dont know how i will get out of this sticky situation but one for sure is that a decision has to be made soon and the true charateristics of my friends and family will be revealed to me, to separate those who are caring and supportive and those who dont give a care.
Be gratefel for whereever you are in especially those who are already on the path they have drawn out and made their mind up, thats good for you.
Be thankful to those who have a chance to migrate overseas out of this country, not to say you left us and its a evil thing, the good thing is you left for a better place, a better life, a better future and we are happy for you but please come back with a grateful heart and dont whine, you dont know how tough things are over here.
To end this blog, i am stuck with no solution at hand, no clear path to take and i dont want to regret making the wrong decision again. The next time when you are stuck in a crossroad,you'll understand how it feels.
My advice for everybody now is to be sure of the path you want to take in the future, dont end up like me, making one two many regretful decisions in life that make me end up in more crossroads.
Also dont let others bring down the path you have drawn out but be sure of that path your taking, a few question you can consider asking about that path your taking 1) Are you sure this is what you want to do? 2)Will it guarante a secure and fruitful future? 3)Is it in your interest to take this path?
question no 3 is very important because if your going to take that path because your parents or friends or someone says that taking this path is good for you, yes it is but believe me if your not interested in doing it and just slumber go and take on the path, your pushing yourself and you will DEFINITELY BURN OUT AND FAIL! because that is what is happening to me now, another advice to heed.
Above it all, one thing you we can be sure when this kind of things happen, we see who is those who really care for us and again those who dont even give a care.
