Another weeks just fly's by

Yeah the weekend is nearing again but when i think of it. Its just another big disappointment because I am missing out some relax and enjoyment time.


Its been three weeks or more since i hit the cinema's to catch a single movie especially transformers 2 which i've been dying to watch since the premier and now there is just so much more to catch, harry potter, ice age and many more and the saddest thing is i would have to miss it one way or another, its either i have some errands to clear, church things to do or there is no one to teman me to go watch together, haizzz the stress

And people always ask me why am i always wanting a relationship and this is one of the apparent reason because sometimes when friends aren't there. You just want the one special person to share this moments with,you know to spice things up and make it more enjoyable and i think some of you might understand what i mean.


And here i am losing out on all the good things in life, somehow it feels so unfair,what did i do to deserve all of this pain? Having a life that is challenging, sacrificing without gaining a single thing. Somehow i feel like i cant find that group of close friends to spend time with like the group or guys and girls you see together with,they just go all out and enjoy themselfs whereelse i am tight down with so much rejection and not that they reject cause they dont want to spend time with but because they are busy and i understand and i hope it is.

The one thing now that is bothering me now is the biggest sacrifice i made, losing weight and trying to look good and yet now i am still single, its so depressing and stressful, jogging until my feet's bleed, hours on exercise's trying to get that good look, doing my best to shed off that extra pounds of fat all for what? In the end what i gain is still the same, life seems to be the same as before, almost depressing,bored,lonely at times and sad.


All the tears,blood and sweat, all the pain, all the heartache and in the end looking not the way i want it to be and not achieving my dreams.hahhh..........




Well enough of my constant whinning and sad moments because i know when i get back to my life, people are gonna read this and call me emo. I hope you all understand what its like to suffer but DONT spare yourself the pain and enjoy your happy life, i am happy for you and i hope you all are happy for me as well for anything you see fit.


Looking on the brigther side of life, i ......hmmm let me think..................car......nope......nahhh.......too....hmmm stucked here.....hold on for a while,let me think.............

Ahh yes check out this music by nickelback title If today was your last day, really meaningful lyrics.