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Today i was as usual went to school, came back, had a nap and then later woke up to do my workout but today i felt very low esteemed and my body is just frustrated. My bod and mind did not cooperate with me much today, just constantly throwing negative thoughts at me.
Well i did manage to work out all the way until it came to the jogging part, ohhh boy was my body really frus with me, i look out and woaa its hot but i would just go and jog, sweat and be satisfied with my jog but today is not the same, i am not motivated to even wear on my shoe at all, after exercising,i would usually just slip on my jogging shoe and take off but today it took me sometime to get my mind straight.
I was going to crack anytime soon because i dont see many change in my physical self especially my tummy, hopping that after so long of sit ups, leg press, crunching, push ups, weight lifting, doing the superman and plank, i though i would be looking at a smaller tummy and more muscular one but to my frustration i just saw the same tummy but with a bit skinnier.
So my body keep telling me that you've been in this for 5 weeks now and there is still no change and i was abit worried cause usually there should be a change by now. So i panic and faster called my friend Albert and tell him my story and amazingly i finally figured out that i was not motivated enough today, so simple he told me this.
'Ok kenneth, its only been like what? 5 weeks, yes you would expect drastic changes but you did not. but dont look too much now, you wont regret later in the future, so just presevere and carry on. I mean if you ask anyone they would tell you that you've changed alot.'
waoo after hearing that i was touch and recharged but still a bit down, so i slipped on my shoes and went to the park. Whilst i was doing my warm up, again i was bombarded by negative toughts, in fact i wanted to break down right there in the park but i just took my time, breath the cool air in the hot weather, then i just unknowingly started to pray to GOD and i felt like he was in the wind<>
When i was ready, off i went jogging with my usual 10 rounds but boy was it tough cause with your body felling detiorated and negative minded, it was very hard to keep myself on track and to just going on. After 10 rounds, phew was i poofed cause of the hot weather, i sweat more than usual.
But i found out that i need to have patience and presevere in this things to benefit myself in the future, eventhough i dont see any drastics changes now but in the future i am sure i will see a change and be satisfied with what i did in the past.
Haaa another week of another month of another day of another year has come, yes it is almost the end of July and i have so much fond and beautiful memories and experiences in life that i have encountered throughout this month. I look back now and say tell myself good job in holding on tight on hard times and of course succesfully defeating depression everytime it arises, haa i am really happy with my accomplishments.
Well back to my post, yup patience the one thing we humans much really REALLY REALL practice, in this fast paced world where everything must be instant and in a hurry, to be patient in everything is very difficult especially waiting upon someone special. But the best to wait upon is none other than GOD, he make it seem so much easier to wait upon him than the world.
My week this time is really strecthing the limits of my patience and total confident in GOD. This week was also a week full of excitement, remember i told your in the last post that i am going to ask the girl to be my prom date, well i succed in asking her yesterday and it seem like the hardest time in my life to talk.
As usual i was abit afraid but i pulled my guts together and ask her whether or not she want to go to prom with me and that i am willing to pay her. Well she was normal, she smiled, giggled a bit and blush, and told me see first. I replied by telling to take her time in thinking about it.
Well the waiting part is the most patience testing time and most worrying time cause what if she say no in the end, what if she just doesnt care at all? So this is all the question that arises when i am waiting for an answer because i see prom night as my last resort into forming a relationship with her, when all else fails that is my backup plan. Well its only day two but i just cant help the fact that what if she has totally forgotten about it? well i can t speculate.
But this is really testing my patience and seeing how patience i am in this kind of things and to see how confident am i in seeing how i do in this situation, am i positive and confident or will i lose out and be negative about the result.
Well that where the beauty of patience comes, the end result sometimes comes to be what you want it to be and sometimes its just not what you want it to be.
This will benefit in the future as now i know how i really react to this kind of situations and at least i know how to handle this situations better in the future.
Ahhh Prom, a day where all senior of my school will met and celebrate our last year together as form 5's and our time to graduate and move on.
Well i am so privileged to have parents who are willing to pay for my prom, it's not that cheap, cost about rm160. But thank God they are so loving and caring and giving their full support.
I have to testify that my mom is the best mom in the world, she is really giving me full support, i ask her if she can sponsor a bit for my prom and she agreed and the best thing, she said money is not a problem, ma will support you 100%. Wow how blessed and privileged am I to have a mom like that.
Well back to my title, Prom is coming soon, its in December but now everything is going like hotcakes to get a prom date and of course so am I. I am currently going to ask this girl, as first i though see whether she goes to the prom and then maybe ask her to be my date then on the dance floor but things are bit hurried when one of my concern friends told me that the girl already has a date, MY JAW DROPPED AND HEART CRACK.
But after thinking for a while, i realize that whatever she is saying is just a rumor and she even confirm with me its just a rumor. So i was calm and wont go into speculating, I decided that i will ask her myself whether she is going to prom and thus letting me know the real truth of whether she already has a date.
I waited after CF to ask her and so my heart was calm, i am as cool as a cucumber, went up to her and ask her whether she was going for prom and to my delight she is undecided whether or not to go prom, Phewww what a relief. Boy was i glad about it.
Then i figured out, now would be the best time to ask her for prom, money no problem, enough for me to pay for both of us. And of course i fear that she would be asked by someone else first and i would lose her, this is my only one chance to ask her for the prom and thing are rush into this kind of situation because i am afraid i will lose her to someone else and another thing the price for prom will be going up in another two weeks.
I am hoping that this time i will succeed in asking her as my prom date. I pray God will grant me this request.
Hi, today is Thursday, praise God for Thursday.
Today i was down and out, let everything out last night, just praying to God to cleanse me and heal me and he did, in fact his presence was so strong that i could feel him hugging me and comforting me.
I was still a bit down and out all the day until recess, as usual i was sitting with one of my friend Albert eating our food and i shared with him why i am not my usual happy positive self today. I told him and he told me something that just hit me as i am writing this.
He told me look at how old we are, we are only 17 years old, we've only been on earth for 17 years and yet we feel like doing everything fast and want it now. We might not have a purpose in life right now but the purpose counts with the experience and thing we go through in our life's now and in the future.
It is true with what he said and it is very real, my generation now wants everything, see a girl you like, go for it. Want that stuff, go get it. There is never a planning or goal set in our life's that some times we miss out the more important things in life than chasing this things.
Well that all i can say for now. But today was a good day to reflect on, though i am suffering now, i should count it a blessing to suffer for God.
Hi, ok first of all this is not an emotional post, it is totally absurd and mean if you call people "EMO" and by this not to scold you guys i am doing this in a nice tone to let you people out there know, when you call somebody and "EMO", DO you know your already labeling him? Do you know your already judging him? Do know your only making things worse? well now you know, so please be kind to the hurts one, dont call them names but talk to them and hug them, show them that somebody cares.
Ok that's all, now back to my post, what do i mean when i title this The day i cried, the rain fell.
Well i am just going to be straight forward with this, I do cry some times, i don't know about you guys but there are times where i just need to cry it all out to feel better. Every time i cry, i feel cleansing in my heart and sometimes i don't either.
But whenever i cry, it is bound to be hold back up as we always tell our self that crying doesn't solve anything and we just keep storing up the pain inside. By this we feel our hearts begin to feel heavier everyday as if there is a black cloud over our heads.
Did you know that sometimes crying is a way God helps us clean our heart? Did you know that sometimes crying our heart out is a way God helps remove all the pain in our hearts?
So the next time you feel the pressure is too much and you need to cry it out, just cry it all out but please do it in a closed place like your room or even better get a friend to cry with you. That way you feel better and more prep to face the days ahead, well that i have to say today, till then God bless and take care.
Crying is define as the act of shedding tears as a response to an emotional state in humans.
Yes its sad but true, i don't know about all you guys out there but i am addicted to Love.
I don't know whether me have this problem but there are times when i just wish i had someone special to hug and love, yes there is always that one moment. See the biggest weakness and tough part of being a guy is you constantly have to struggle on relationships, have to be patience when you want to get a girl, must be polite, must be gentleman, must be humble.
But being a guy also have its good parts like every time we fall, the girls never cease to pick us up and dust off the dust from us and push us on in Life's challenges, we persevere, we have passion, we have strength that is never ceasing, we press on in Life's never ending struggle.
Ok back to my point, i always yearn to have this wonderful feeling, that kind of feeling that makes your heart melt, your spirit soar high and your feel like in cloud nine. The kind of feeling that you get when you have that special someone to hold on, hug, kiss, and share the special moment. All lover birds out there should know what i mean.
Though i never had the chance to experience it myself, but i can feel it in a distant, the kind of feeling that literally change your whole being. But like they all say it is just a feeling but i guess its just who i am.
I took this personality test on how is my love life, and ok i know that some times this things are inaccurate but i think it really best describes me.
It says that i am a passionate lover, i cherish every moment i spend with that special someone, i ams loyal and faithful to that special someone and i am grateful and appreciate every moment i have with that special someone and many more.
I guess that i have to be patience on Love and relationship, though it might seem like every one is getting relationship, i guess i must take it slow in order for thing to turn out right. I have to be faithful in God to guide me to the right one, hopefully this FATS will go away soon.
Well i confess and admit that i am really addicted to LOVE, it might be the one thing i am constanly trying to find in my life but it is happening like a puzzle, slowly solving the picture and revealing the picture in whole when it is done.
I regret that i did not try to start things earlier with the girl but God's timing is always perfect, only he knows whats best for me. Only he can know who that special someone is for me, you know a lot of people say that we should sit back relax and let God lead that someone special to you. I can tell you now it will never work.
You first have to take the first step by making as many new friends as possible, guy and girl.
Here is one thing i learn that we should do if we like a girl,
1) never walk up to her and tell her I LOVE YOU, you will freak out the girl and she might not like you or maybe even know you, she will probably be thinking who is this weirdo.
2) take things slow, dont rush and jump into a relationship, be patient and get to know her first, that way she will slowly gain confidence in you.
3) dont try to be around her all the time, give her some space, if not then she feels like she is being stalked.
4) be a social active guy, show her that your a fun guy to hang around with and that your are a really nice, lovable and fun guy to be with.
5) BE PATIENT, i am stressing this because i have friends who keep asking me to faster get the girls phone number and faster form a relationship, yeah it might work but i will slowly and surely lose her, remember point 2 and of course you find it easier to communicate and interact with each other in the long run to come.
6) Be patient in hard times, dont pounce on the girl and let all hell break loose on her, when you are in a bad mood, take time to cool down and dont whin to them, when she is in a bad mood, this is a good time to cheer her up and maybe win her heart or prove to her you are the right gujy to be with her, this part is going to be alot more harder than me saying it.
7) Hygiene, cleaniness and manners. Keep yourself clean and smelling good, dont put too much deo, you dont want the girl to faint, make sure you bath proparly.
well that is all i can think of for now, so after seeing this, yes i am addicted to LOVE and want a girlfriend but i've got to be a better person first and prepare myself now for the love of my life in the future.
Trust me when i say, God knows the best thing in life for us and he has already prepare the best for us, you think the girl infront of you now is the most perfect but guess what if that relationship with the first girl does not work, you break up, you complain to God.
But believe me if you are patient and faithful, God will grant you that special someone and you will surely say waoo she more then i expected her to be. You see , i am sure you will say that God really knows what is best for us.
Thats all i have for now, God bless your days ahead, take care and dont forget to SMILE and be HAPPY and JOYFUL in the Lord.
"I though i knew what is best for me but turns out God plans my future thus making him know what best for me better than i do."
Hello and welcome again to my lovely blog, today i found out something very true in life again. It is ALWAYS GOOD even when it sucks at times.
I have feeling there will be people not agreeing with what i am saying but hear me out in this one.
Yes today is Friday, i was so happy cause i can finally get to chill back a bit after the super duper crazy tiring energy week. Today was as a usual day, woke up, did my quiet time, had a nice breakfast, a yummy half-boil egg, a piece of bread with butter and of course my favorite Vico with oats, emmm filling and nutritional.
So i was happy as usual, with a smile on my face when i hoped on my transport and went school, then the day started with the ringing of the school bell, kkkrrrriiinggg... my first few periods was ok and i was wide awake but after recess, i felt like a dead beat, i was so so tired, i can just sleep with myself standing up, ok a bit too dramatic but none the less school finally ended, YEAH now it is time for C.F, I love my school C.F eventhough there is always like 2 or 3 form 5's and a pool size worth of other forms' might be overwhelming but at least its good to see C.F growing steadily with the younger generations.
Then my mind today again was quite upset, dont know why it just came about, maybe cause of boredom and tireness, then the girl came to my mind, i haven spoken to her in like centuries and i though why not today i give it a try and talk to her cause we've been letting life have its course. So i went C.F earlier today to help my friend carry the super gigantic speakers but dont worry this new and imporved kenneth got some muscles, so piece of cake.
What was funny is that when we bought the speakers to the third floor of one of our school block, our teacher told us that we are moving to the hall, i was ok with it but my friend was having that face like huh now only you tell after 6 fligths of stairs, never the less we manage to carry it to the hall. After that he went to set up the P.A and i well was just whistling away, stoning and dont know what to do, then i saw that the usher needs more help, so i went to usher, went to tell people where C.F is and greet people to C.F
Hand by hands pass by me but the only one i was anticipating was the hand of the girl but you know what, Yes I did Not get to see her or even shake her hand, so i was ok, cool as a cucumber went to C.F and we had high praise, wonderful worship. Half way through we were singing and i started to look around, ahem konon neck need stretching, then i saw her. ahhhh, ok a bit to dramatic again but that did not stop me from worshiping God, i was more concentrated on the worship then her. So that was C.F, then we all went home, aww i hate leaving C.F
On my way out i went to take my yellow koku card, then there she was right beside, we were battling through the hordes of form 2,3 and 4 student, wahh they were like pirahnas swarming the little table with the cards, as i was going to reach out for the form 5 cards, though i help her take as well, out of nowwhere this hand came out and grab it first. I followed the hand and there i stare her straight in the eye and she smile and told me my card was there, so me being a GENTLEman, said thank you and took my card.
I faster took the card and at first she did not want to start a conversation and i was like not good, she must be upset i did not talk to her for so long, but then i continued anyway, we talk and talk until she went home. Said goodbye and waved to her.
Ok i forgot to clear the air first, yes it sounds like i am still trying to get her but i am taking it slow by being friends first. Ok clear done
Went back home and ate lunch, by then i was so tired and wanted to take a nap but i had to do my work out, so i got some minutes of rest and started to work out later, the usual sit up's, push up's, lifting weight's and jogging but the best part was when i was going to jog.
Today i had to do more than usual cause yesterday night i ate a bit too much. So instead of my usual 10, i plan to go 15 rounds because of time restrain, I could not do 20 rounds, the point is i would have not even manage 10 rounds my body would be aching like crazy, but today i felt great and fit to go 15 rounds especially when i was going uphill, ohh this is the first time i did not slow down so much. Was satisfied with my work out, FATS be GONE.
So my point is, you see the day i went through, so bless and lovely day, WHY?
1) eventhough i was super duper monkey king kong chili padi hot like crazy bigger than bigfoot tired, i still manage to gain my strenght to worship my Father in heaven.
2) I got to talk to the girl even though she did not want at first but we got back to talking like friends again soon.
3) I got to work out to the max today even with my tire body that is completely not fit and sweat the fats off.
4) I had such a happy day, no fuss, no depression, no anger, just Joy and peace in the Lord.
See Life is always good cause God meant it to be that way, it is us men who make it worse.
Maybe you can try these one day, dont start to complain over problems but just let life has it course, for that one day, try enjoying what you are doing and what your day is with friends and maybe a specail someone and i tell you, you will see things to become better for you, things would take a sudden twist and start looking up.
LIFE is always GOOD even when there is up's and down's because God made this day to be GOOD for EVERYBODY.
"Dear heavenly father in heaven, i pray Lord that whoever has read this blog will understand what i am tryin to mean and speak to them. I pray Lord that if anyone reaing this post is lost, depressed or even just upset over the day they spent, i pray Lord you show them what you've showed me, unconditional Love and everlasting Joy. I also want to pray Lord that those who want to have a good week ahead that they might try to look at the brigther side of life and enjoy what you have in stored for them, AMEN."
