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Today i was as usual went to school, came back, had a nap and then later woke up to do my workout but today i felt very low esteemed and my body is just frustrated. My bod and mind did not cooperate with me much today, just constantly throwing negative thoughts at me.
Well i did manage to work out all the way until it came to the jogging part, ohhh boy was my body really frus with me, i look out and woaa its hot but i would just go and jog, sweat and be satisfied with my jog but today is not the same, i am not motivated to even wear on my shoe at all, after exercising,i would usually just slip on my jogging shoe and take off but today it took me sometime to get my mind straight.
I was going to crack anytime soon because i dont see many change in my physical self especially my tummy, hopping that after so long of sit ups, leg press, crunching, push ups, weight lifting, doing the superman and plank, i though i would be looking at a smaller tummy and more muscular one but to my frustration i just saw the same tummy but with a bit skinnier.
So my body keep telling me that you've been in this for 5 weeks now and there is still no change and i was abit worried cause usually there should be a change by now. So i panic and faster called my friend Albert and tell him my story and amazingly i finally figured out that i was not motivated enough today, so simple he told me this.
'Ok kenneth, its only been like what? 5 weeks, yes you would expect drastic changes but you did not. but dont look too much now, you wont regret later in the future, so just presevere and carry on. I mean if you ask anyone they would tell you that you've changed alot.'
waoo after hearing that i was touch and recharged but still a bit down, so i slipped on my shoes and went to the park. Whilst i was doing my warm up, again i was bombarded by negative toughts, in fact i wanted to break down right there in the park but i just took my time, breath the cool air in the hot weather, then i just unknowingly started to pray to GOD and i felt like he was in the wind<>
When i was ready, off i went jogging with my usual 10 rounds but boy was it tough cause with your body felling detiorated and negative minded, it was very hard to keep myself on track and to just going on. After 10 rounds, phew was i poofed cause of the hot weather, i sweat more than usual.
But i found out that i need to have patience and presevere in this things to benefit myself in the future, eventhough i dont see any drastics changes now but in the future i am sure i will see a change and be satisfied with what i did in the past.
Haaa another week of another month of another day of another year has come, yes it is almost the end of July and i have so much fond and beautiful memories and experiences in life that i have encountered throughout this month. I look back now and say tell myself good job in holding on tight on hard times and of course succesfully defeating depression everytime it arises, haa i am really happy with my accomplishments.
Well back to my post, yup patience the one thing we humans much really REALLY REALL practice, in this fast paced world where everything must be instant and in a hurry, to be patient in everything is very difficult especially waiting upon someone special. But the best to wait upon is none other than GOD, he make it seem so much easier to wait upon him than the world.
My week this time is really strecthing the limits of my patience and total confident in GOD. This week was also a week full of excitement, remember i told your in the last post that i am going to ask the girl to be my prom date, well i succed in asking her yesterday and it seem like the hardest time in my life to talk.
As usual i was abit afraid but i pulled my guts together and ask her whether or not she want to go to prom with me and that i am willing to pay her. Well she was normal, she smiled, giggled a bit and blush, and told me see first. I replied by telling to take her time in thinking about it.
Well the waiting part is the most patience testing time and most worrying time cause what if she say no in the end, what if she just doesnt care at all? So this is all the question that arises when i am waiting for an answer because i see prom night as my last resort into forming a relationship with her, when all else fails that is my backup plan. Well its only day two but i just cant help the fact that what if she has totally forgotten about it? well i can t speculate.
But this is really testing my patience and seeing how patience i am in this kind of things and to see how confident am i in seeing how i do in this situation, am i positive and confident or will i lose out and be negative about the result.
Well that where the beauty of patience comes, the end result sometimes comes to be what you want it to be and sometimes its just not what you want it to be.
This will benefit in the future as now i know how i really react to this kind of situations and at least i know how to handle this situations better in the future.
Ahhh Prom, a day where all senior of my school will met and celebrate our last year together as form 5's and our time to graduate and move on.
Well i am so privileged to have parents who are willing to pay for my prom, it's not that cheap, cost about rm160. But thank God they are so loving and caring and giving their full support.
I have to testify that my mom is the best mom in the world, she is really giving me full support, i ask her if she can sponsor a bit for my prom and she agreed and the best thing, she said money is not a problem, ma will support you 100%. Wow how blessed and privileged am I to have a mom like that.
Well back to my title, Prom is coming soon, its in December but now everything is going like hotcakes to get a prom date and of course so am I. I am currently going to ask this girl, as first i though see whether she goes to the prom and then maybe ask her to be my date then on the dance floor but things are bit hurried when one of my concern friends told me that the girl already has a date, MY JAW DROPPED AND HEART CRACK.
But after thinking for a while, i realize that whatever she is saying is just a rumor and she even confirm with me its just a rumor. So i was calm and wont go into speculating, I decided that i will ask her myself whether she is going to prom and thus letting me know the real truth of whether she already has a date.
I waited after CF to ask her and so my heart was calm, i am as cool as a cucumber, went up to her and ask her whether she was going for prom and to my delight she is undecided whether or not to go prom, Phewww what a relief. Boy was i glad about it.
Then i figured out, now would be the best time to ask her for prom, money no problem, enough for me to pay for both of us. And of course i fear that she would be asked by someone else first and i would lose her, this is my only one chance to ask her for the prom and thing are rush into this kind of situation because i am afraid i will lose her to someone else and another thing the price for prom will be going up in another two weeks.
I am hoping that this time i will succeed in asking her as my prom date. I pray God will grant me this request.
Hi, today is Thursday, praise God for Thursday.
Today i was down and out, let everything out last night, just praying to God to cleanse me and heal me and he did, in fact his presence was so strong that i could feel him hugging me and comforting me.
I was still a bit down and out all the day until recess, as usual i was sitting with one of my friend Albert eating our food and i shared with him why i am not my usual happy positive self today. I told him and he told me something that just hit me as i am writing this.
He told me look at how old we are, we are only 17 years old, we've only been on earth for 17 years and yet we feel like doing everything fast and want it now. We might not have a purpose in life right now but the purpose counts with the experience and thing we go through in our life's now and in the future.
It is true with what he said and it is very real, my generation now wants everything, see a girl you like, go for it. Want that stuff, go get it. There is never a planning or goal set in our life's that some times we miss out the more important things in life than chasing this things.
Well that all i can say for now. But today was a good day to reflect on, though i am suffering now, i should count it a blessing to suffer for God.
Hi, ok first of all this is not an emotional post, it is totally absurd and mean if you call people "EMO" and by this not to scold you guys i am doing this in a nice tone to let you people out there know, when you call somebody and "EMO", DO you know your already labeling him? Do you know your already judging him? Do know your only making things worse? well now you know, so please be kind to the hurts one, dont call them names but talk to them and hug them, show them that somebody cares.
Ok that's all, now back to my post, what do i mean when i title this The day i cried, the rain fell.
Well i am just going to be straight forward with this, I do cry some times, i don't know about you guys but there are times where i just need to cry it all out to feel better. Every time i cry, i feel cleansing in my heart and sometimes i don't either.
But whenever i cry, it is bound to be hold back up as we always tell our self that crying doesn't solve anything and we just keep storing up the pain inside. By this we feel our hearts begin to feel heavier everyday as if there is a black cloud over our heads.
Did you know that sometimes crying is a way God helps us clean our heart? Did you know that sometimes crying our heart out is a way God helps remove all the pain in our hearts?
So the next time you feel the pressure is too much and you need to cry it out, just cry it all out but please do it in a closed place like your room or even better get a friend to cry with you. That way you feel better and more prep to face the days ahead, well that i have to say today, till then God bless and take care.
Crying is define as the act of shedding tears as a response to an emotional state in humans.
Yes its sad but true, i don't know about all you guys out there but i am addicted to Love.
I don't know whether me have this problem but there are times when i just wish i had someone special to hug and love, yes there is always that one moment. See the biggest weakness and tough part of being a guy is you constantly have to struggle on relationships, have to be patience when you want to get a girl, must be polite, must be gentleman, must be humble.
But being a guy also have its good parts like every time we fall, the girls never cease to pick us up and dust off the dust from us and push us on in Life's challenges, we persevere, we have passion, we have strength that is never ceasing, we press on in Life's never ending struggle.
Ok back to my point, i always yearn to have this wonderful feeling, that kind of feeling that makes your heart melt, your spirit soar high and your feel like in cloud nine. The kind of feeling that you get when you have that special someone to hold on, hug, kiss, and share the special moment. All lover birds out there should know what i mean.
Though i never had the chance to experience it myself, but i can feel it in a distant, the kind of feeling that literally change your whole being. But like they all say it is just a feeling but i guess its just who i am.
I took this personality test on how is my love life, and ok i know that some times this things are inaccurate but i think it really best describes me.
It says that i am a passionate lover, i cherish every moment i spend with that special someone, i ams loyal and faithful to that special someone and i am grateful and appreciate every moment i have with that special someone and many more.
I guess that i have to be patience on Love and relationship, though it might seem like every one is getting relationship, i guess i must take it slow in order for thing to turn out right. I have to be faithful in God to guide me to the right one, hopefully this FATS will go away soon.
Well i confess and admit that i am really addicted to LOVE, it might be the one thing i am constanly trying to find in my life but it is happening like a puzzle, slowly solving the picture and revealing the picture in whole when it is done.
I regret that i did not try to start things earlier with the girl but God's timing is always perfect, only he knows whats best for me. Only he can know who that special someone is for me, you know a lot of people say that we should sit back relax and let God lead that someone special to you. I can tell you now it will never work.
You first have to take the first step by making as many new friends as possible, guy and girl.
Here is one thing i learn that we should do if we like a girl,
1) never walk up to her and tell her I LOVE YOU, you will freak out the girl and she might not like you or maybe even know you, she will probably be thinking who is this weirdo.
2) take things slow, dont rush and jump into a relationship, be patient and get to know her first, that way she will slowly gain confidence in you.
3) dont try to be around her all the time, give her some space, if not then she feels like she is being stalked.
4) be a social active guy, show her that your a fun guy to hang around with and that your are a really nice, lovable and fun guy to be with.
5) BE PATIENT, i am stressing this because i have friends who keep asking me to faster get the girls phone number and faster form a relationship, yeah it might work but i will slowly and surely lose her, remember point 2 and of course you find it easier to communicate and interact with each other in the long run to come.
6) Be patient in hard times, dont pounce on the girl and let all hell break loose on her, when you are in a bad mood, take time to cool down and dont whin to them, when she is in a bad mood, this is a good time to cheer her up and maybe win her heart or prove to her you are the right gujy to be with her, this part is going to be alot more harder than me saying it.
7) Hygiene, cleaniness and manners. Keep yourself clean and smelling good, dont put too much deo, you dont want the girl to faint, make sure you bath proparly.
well that is all i can think of for now, so after seeing this, yes i am addicted to LOVE and want a girlfriend but i've got to be a better person first and prepare myself now for the love of my life in the future.
Trust me when i say, God knows the best thing in life for us and he has already prepare the best for us, you think the girl infront of you now is the most perfect but guess what if that relationship with the first girl does not work, you break up, you complain to God.
But believe me if you are patient and faithful, God will grant you that special someone and you will surely say waoo she more then i expected her to be. You see , i am sure you will say that God really knows what is best for us.
Thats all i have for now, God bless your days ahead, take care and dont forget to SMILE and be HAPPY and JOYFUL in the Lord.
"I though i knew what is best for me but turns out God plans my future thus making him know what best for me better than i do."
Hello and welcome again to my lovely blog, today i found out something very true in life again. It is ALWAYS GOOD even when it sucks at times.
I have feeling there will be people not agreeing with what i am saying but hear me out in this one.
Yes today is Friday, i was so happy cause i can finally get to chill back a bit after the super duper crazy tiring energy week. Today was as a usual day, woke up, did my quiet time, had a nice breakfast, a yummy half-boil egg, a piece of bread with butter and of course my favorite Vico with oats, emmm filling and nutritional.
So i was happy as usual, with a smile on my face when i hoped on my transport and went school, then the day started with the ringing of the school bell, kkkrrrriiinggg... my first few periods was ok and i was wide awake but after recess, i felt like a dead beat, i was so so tired, i can just sleep with myself standing up, ok a bit too dramatic but none the less school finally ended, YEAH now it is time for C.F, I love my school C.F eventhough there is always like 2 or 3 form 5's and a pool size worth of other forms' might be overwhelming but at least its good to see C.F growing steadily with the younger generations.
Then my mind today again was quite upset, dont know why it just came about, maybe cause of boredom and tireness, then the girl came to my mind, i haven spoken to her in like centuries and i though why not today i give it a try and talk to her cause we've been letting life have its course. So i went C.F earlier today to help my friend carry the super gigantic speakers but dont worry this new and imporved kenneth got some muscles, so piece of cake.
What was funny is that when we bought the speakers to the third floor of one of our school block, our teacher told us that we are moving to the hall, i was ok with it but my friend was having that face like huh now only you tell after 6 fligths of stairs, never the less we manage to carry it to the hall. After that he went to set up the P.A and i well was just whistling away, stoning and dont know what to do, then i saw that the usher needs more help, so i went to usher, went to tell people where C.F is and greet people to C.F
Hand by hands pass by me but the only one i was anticipating was the hand of the girl but you know what, Yes I did Not get to see her or even shake her hand, so i was ok, cool as a cucumber went to C.F and we had high praise, wonderful worship. Half way through we were singing and i started to look around, ahem konon neck need stretching, then i saw her. ahhhh, ok a bit to dramatic again but that did not stop me from worshiping God, i was more concentrated on the worship then her. So that was C.F, then we all went home, aww i hate leaving C.F
On my way out i went to take my yellow koku card, then there she was right beside, we were battling through the hordes of form 2,3 and 4 student, wahh they were like pirahnas swarming the little table with the cards, as i was going to reach out for the form 5 cards, though i help her take as well, out of nowwhere this hand came out and grab it first. I followed the hand and there i stare her straight in the eye and she smile and told me my card was there, so me being a GENTLEman, said thank you and took my card.
I faster took the card and at first she did not want to start a conversation and i was like not good, she must be upset i did not talk to her for so long, but then i continued anyway, we talk and talk until she went home. Said goodbye and waved to her.
Ok i forgot to clear the air first, yes it sounds like i am still trying to get her but i am taking it slow by being friends first. Ok clear done
Went back home and ate lunch, by then i was so tired and wanted to take a nap but i had to do my work out, so i got some minutes of rest and started to work out later, the usual sit up's, push up's, lifting weight's and jogging but the best part was when i was going to jog.
Today i had to do more than usual cause yesterday night i ate a bit too much. So instead of my usual 10, i plan to go 15 rounds because of time restrain, I could not do 20 rounds, the point is i would have not even manage 10 rounds my body would be aching like crazy, but today i felt great and fit to go 15 rounds especially when i was going uphill, ohh this is the first time i did not slow down so much. Was satisfied with my work out, FATS be GONE.
So my point is, you see the day i went through, so bless and lovely day, WHY?
1) eventhough i was super duper monkey king kong chili padi hot like crazy bigger than bigfoot tired, i still manage to gain my strenght to worship my Father in heaven.
2) I got to talk to the girl even though she did not want at first but we got back to talking like friends again soon.
3) I got to work out to the max today even with my tire body that is completely not fit and sweat the fats off.
4) I had such a happy day, no fuss, no depression, no anger, just Joy and peace in the Lord.
See Life is always good cause God meant it to be that way, it is us men who make it worse.
Maybe you can try these one day, dont start to complain over problems but just let life has it course, for that one day, try enjoying what you are doing and what your day is with friends and maybe a specail someone and i tell you, you will see things to become better for you, things would take a sudden twist and start looking up.
LIFE is always GOOD even when there is up's and down's because God made this day to be GOOD for EVERYBODY.
"Dear heavenly father in heaven, i pray Lord that whoever has read this blog will understand what i am tryin to mean and speak to them. I pray Lord that if anyone reaing this post is lost, depressed or even just upset over the day they spent, i pray Lord you show them what you've showed me, unconditional Love and everlasting Joy. I also want to pray Lord that those who want to have a good week ahead that they might try to look at the brigther side of life and enjoy what you have in stored for them, AMEN."
Yup as it says LIFE IS NEVER PERFECT BUT BEAUTIFUL.
Now i know i am getting a lot of huh? and i don't know what he saying? But hear or see me on this one, it is by far the best quote i can think off, better than the rest before.
I came to realize when i started to post this, I am so tired cause of the week. Phew can literally sleep all i wan but cant because banyak homework and assignment to finish up. Well today is thursday, wohooo tomorow friday, got CF, clap clap clap. I love my CF.
So more about today, as usual GOD is good all the time and all the time GOD is good. Praise and glory be to GOD because today i was having quite and emotional battle today, trying very hard to fight back dedpression as usual, strubbon little thing, wont die off wan. Then add on all the boring lessons today, i can die of boredom and depression, but thank God for friends, we were literally laughin the whole day today, making jokes and playing a fool.
Then again my sad feelings came up, WHY cant the girl talk to me? that was what keep coming up to my mind because i haven talk to her in 3 weeks, give or take. On top of that, seeing myself again, i look back to the past again, hate all this flash backs and memory, wish i can delete it but oh well I somehow manage to fend it off but i was super duper tired.
Looking back i realise one thing today, i somehow realise Life is never perfect, things never seem to go your way or the way you want it to, like i say i want to talk to the girl but things just get in the way, want to have a happy day, turned out gloomy for a while. Dont wan so much homework, got quite a sum, essay...essay...essay...EST.. oh man. Want to take a map today, can only afford 20 minutes cause banyak homework to complete.
Well it might seem like it was a tough day, like i say Life is never perfect but it is beautiful, wanna know why?
1) At least the girl and i still smile and wave to each other, still friends,Good.
2) Class very boring, but interesting facts and fooling around to brighten up class, i am the class clown by the way.
3) Had a great fellowship with friends today, just laughing the whole day long
4) Manage to be happy for half a day in my life.
5) God bless us with a nice weather, no need to sweat like a PIG, ahaha
6) Friends are seem to be getting closer to me now, Praise and glory be unto God.
7) The new me changes everything that happens around me.
8) Got to jog and sweat, hopefully the middle kingdom(big tummy) will slowly shrink down
9) Never got scolding from teachers at all today, my school teachers are emo people wan, but pray God blas...ahem bless and love them too.
10) Manage to cheer some people up, made their days, made them happy.
See what i mean, God bless me so banyak, it overflows, the trouble and suffering is there, yes but look at the blessings and good side of life. Now you know what i mean when i say LIFE is never PERFECT but BEAUTIFUL.
Keep this in my mind, dont look and grieve on the sorrow part of life but enjoy and thank God for the good side of life, its like a lollipop, the one with the sour powder wan, we slick off the sour part first, then comes the sweet part, same thing as Life, we must endure hardship and pain in Life but at the end there will always be something good happening to you, you just need to open up your eyes and ears to the present, Stop sulking i the past.
So the one sure formula in Life: STOP LOOKING at the PAST and ENJOY the PRESENT.
"LIFE IS NEVER PERFECT BUT BEAUTIFUL"
"Dear heavenly father, I pray that anyone who read this post will be bless seven folds for the rest of their week, I pray that if the person reading this post is going through depression or having a hard time, I pray now in the name of Jesus, set them free!!! Bless their soul, heart, mind and body, may your love shower upon them like never before, let them cry their sorrows out and look to you as their solution, I pray that every person who read this post will enjoy the rest of their day to the fullest and I pray again Lord bless them seven folds for the rest of their days, IN JESUS NAME I PRAY, AMEN."
HOW TO MAKE YOUR DAY HAPPIER? this will be the common questions people ask on a gloomy day. Well i have found out a few ways that might work but of course it is not 100% proven to work on everybody.
Well lets have the first scenario:
It is Monday, your a guy, nothing much to expect in school(can replace with own place of conduct), single and don't seem to see any good in this day.
In seeing this, HOW TO MAKE YOUR DAY HAPPIER. Easssyyy,
1) kick that Monday blues habit, slap it off and tell yourself its Monday, i should start the day off with a happy heart.
2) Try to list out some interesting things to do like getting to know a girl or guy, doing good deeds, going for sports.
3) If you are a christian, Pray for God's blessing and joy to be upon you, Pray for a different heart and mind. Pray for the everlasting Joy and Love of God.
Ok if you think none of that can work, then there is one thing that you need to change to MAKE YOUR DAY HAPPIER.
CHANGE YOU MINDSET, STOP LOOKING IN THE PAST AND ENJOY THE PRESENT.
You know a friend told me that everytime we look at the past, we tend to miss out the good things in the present. SO kick the past away and enjoy what we have now, yes sometime it sucks, but just live with what you got.
Stop the depression from taking a hold of your life. everyone was meant to lead a happy and joyfull life, Everyone is blessed by God with a great day, enjoy it.
WE ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE, MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT.
WE ONLY CAN LIVE THE DAYS ONCE, MAKE FULL USE OF IT, LIVE IT OUT.
WE WAKE UP, IT IS ANOTHER DAY, A NEW CHAPTER, FORGET THE PAST AND MOVE ON.
Hello and welcome to my blog once again, here i am again with yet another interesting and meaningful post, not emo one, i have changed.
Its another day in another week of another month of another year but this year was my year of challenge and also victories in life. As you all know i am a changed man now, i am happy and grateful in everything i have and i am very positive minded now.
This week however proves to be one of the more interesting and challenging week compared to the rest. This week i face yet again another challenge in life, I got a revisit by the demon of depression, yes he was back but thank God he was there to help me slain it, although he manage to get a hold of me for an hour or so, God once again saved me by being there for me.
This week the challenges that i face was to be wise in everything I do especially when i have an argument with a sibling, it takes a lot more humility and humbleness to calm down and think twice before speaking, now that is wisdom. Also, i had some problems in school, thought the pressure and stress was high, i manage to look to God for shelter from the bombardment of the world. Another thing is with GIRLS, yes i made a stupid mistake by trying to find a relationship, and it is very funny cause i can imagine Adrians voice right now probably saying:"See God sudah cakap jangan, you still want, Ok now he let you try, you sow what you reap..." HAHA no offence adrian if your read this, your still a great leader and bro in christ.
Somehow this girl was playing with me , when i started off by getting to know her, it was ok, she like me and i like her, She was very open, she laughed, i laughed, could see something was going on but nothing can beat this, I CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND GIRLS, they are so confusing and weird, no offence. First we were so close and she was so open to me and getting closer to me but all of the sudden she backs off me, and i was ok, its alright no problem, some space is good for the both of us but its very confusing as in What is she thinking about? and How does she want this to go? So i very sad, confused and lost but yet again thank God for mom's and of course his glorious wisdom, my mom manage to solve my problem, very easy she say, now the girl is playing hard to get, so reverse psychology, you do the same thing, back off and give her some space, she dont want to talk, fine. Just smile and wave but dont shun her off, it would be rude, in a way you may make her miss you. And i was like, so thats how things go, interesting.
After seeing, i plan to study on girls after graduating from psychology, it would be both benefical and interesting, we are both the same species just different gender but yet we dont seem to think the same and act the same, interesting?Bottom line, i am great right now cause deep down i know i am not going to get a relationship, i am just going to be friends, which by the way is much more cool and who say single is drag? Being SINGLE is SEXY, haha, bit too much.
Anyways moving on, today i was so filled with dissappointment for failing God and of course many more problems but God is always sovereign and great, I prayed for forgiveness and he did forgive and ask him to help me go back to the root of true joy that is him. And he did help me by blessing me with jogging, yes jogging with a childhood friend name Lee Yew Leung, a great guy, he teaceh me so much and i did'nt know so many interesting things about jogging and the methods and so son but the greatest part when he decided to help me push the limits, instead of my daily rounds of 10 rounds, he challenge me to go 20 rounds.
So i said yes, no harm right, boy was it tiring but the best part was that he was there to cheer me on and guide me, which was fantastic. He standing and jogging beside me is a 15 year old kid who is an althletic by the way, guiding me how to jog and teaching me, i felt great to be humble and learn from him. After the 20 rounds, i was happy because finally i achieve something that i wuold never have accomplish in my life. Joy was there as i left home and the last words he said really make me tear cause none of my friends would say this :"Ok see you ken, it was a PLEASURE jogging with YOU." I was so touch to know that at least i made someones day and know that someone still acknowledge my presence, not to say all my friends dont, just that this things rarely happen to me.
After going home, i decided to tag along with my mom in her daily walk at the park for protection prupose, so there was my mom, speed walking around the field as i take a slow and comfortable and was what beast is that i felt Jesus walking beside me, How COOL is that? Imagine JESUS right beside me, talking to me, i felt so blessed and happy. Today was such a blessed day.
In conclusion, though there was many trials and challenges, though i fell many times, God was there to forgive and forget and guide me on, He even blessed me, what and awesome God we serve, He love me so much, he even send true joy and happiness to me, he even make things appear a lot easier in my life now, he blessed me so much that i cant contain it anymore, the song one day keeps playing in my head. such and indescribable, wonderful and loving God we serve.
"SO BLESSED I CANT CONTAIN IT,
SO MUCH I WANT TO GIVE IT AWAY,
YOUR LOVE TAUGHT ME TO LIVE NOW,
YOU ARE MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME"
HELLO fellow bloggers, it is I again, yours truly KENNETH WONG, clap clap clap, chee perasaan, haha.
Any hows I realize one more thing in life, everything I do it I do it for God, I run, jog, eat, sleep, shower, and everything else, I do it for God and also God's will. When ever i do something and i pray over it, it feels easier to do and I find it very meaningful and it makes a whole lot of difference knowing that God is there for me.
And it feels great being my new person now, I live everyday fresh and full of love to give to and of course being happy and joyful for the lord is with me. I will from now try to spread the love of God as far as possible and of course i will help those who are in need with the help of my Father in heaven.
How awesome is him to heal my broken soul and to give me a new heart and mind, my words could not express the miracle that happen to me. I will make sure that my friends will experience the healing and loving power of God because there is no one on earth that could do this except God.
"IT MAKES A DIFFERENCE KNOWING GOD IS THERE WITH US"
Hello fellow bloggers, i notice one thing very interesting and wonderful in my life.
I notice that when i finally put to death the demon of depression in my life, GOOD RIDDANCE once and for all, somehow last time it decided to go for a holiday break. But this time i put it to death for good once and for all, i am a new being now.
I am so thankful that God has made me fresh a new, now my friends say that they are glad that i am back to my positive self again, the Kenneth they knew earlier in the year and also one more thing is that i could stand a chance to help others who are also going through this stage of depression in life.
I think that somehow all of us will go through depression in one stage or another, it is a good stage as there is a very good explanation behind it, remember the heart i drawn and post it on one of the post, well the heart show as an overall is the surface area of our emotional life and we fell depressed because there are some sediments or deep dark stored away feelings that needs to be cleaned, so if we all manage to persevere, we will be able to clean our heart and change it a new.
And i think the only way we should help a depressed person is to talk to him, listen to him, NEVER JUDGE him because its very cliche to him, help him solve his problems, help him let everything out and of course pray together as a whole that God will cleanse his heart through this process.
Be positive to someone is the best thing we can do to be nice and cheery, the moment we make someone happy or lifted his burden, the glory be to God and you have saved someone's day.
GOD + JOY + FAITH = HAPPYNESS IN LIFE
They say a woman can melt a mens heart but a Mom can heal a broken heart and that is so true.
As you all know by now that i have turn over a new leaf, being my positive self everyday, seeing each day as a blessing and of course not moaning anymore of the past but being grateful and appreciating the small things in life.
My week has been awesome and wonderful, so many new experiences and teachings in life, one great thing about God is that he never cease to teach and guide. I was having th time of my life, thought there are projects and homework and studies, the Lord never cease to be there for me and guiding me through everything in life.
Today is by far the most interesting day ever, i was happy the whole week and never want to cease being joyful in the Lord but today i face one major challenge and i am a bit shy to share this part, just know its a big task and i failed to accomplish the task but i still manage to look it over and take it easy, look things over and cheer myself up and the first time i manage to fight back depression by the good grace of God.
But somehow the depression kept knocking on my door and once in a while it will kick back in, so i prayed and asked God to help me, Lo and behold when i was doing my homework and chatting, my mom was online, so we had a nice chat like all mom would do with her son.
My mom was so good at comforting me and guiding me on, she loves me so much that no matter how many times i say i failed, she would encourage me to be stronger and persevere. At the end i felt this was God's help beacon for me, my mom was the person who i would think last to see about this challenge that i failed but what i did not know, is that she is the most understanding and caring person on earth towards me.
So next time if you have any problem, seek your mom for help, talk to her and just chat, who knows she might even help you solve your problem.
"OUR MOM IS OUR CLOSEST AND BEST FRIEND, WHOSE LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL TOWARDS HER CHILD, SHE WIPES OUR TEARS AND PICK US UP WHEN WE FALL." Amen
Good tidings to you fellow blog viewers, i am here once again with another post.
It is yet another week and day of my life, this week seems to be different that the rest of the week.
Why you ask? Because i have God with me there all the way, for the first time in my life, i am not sorrowful and in depression but what is most exciting is that God has reveal so many new things in my life.
In this week, i was able to experience the new me, that is now, i was never so changed and renewed, now everyday i am able to fulfill my quota of study and still have time for exercise and by God's good grace i was able to lose weight. The most exciting part is when i went jogging, i was persevering and patience.
Not to brag but this is the first time i was able to jog non stop, although there are times where i would slow down and do a slow jog but the best part of is there was time i wanted to stop and just walk somehow i did not stop, i kept on going, i went down all the way to the temple, went down hill some more and then non stop all the way uphill.
Dont know why but i just did not want to stop, i want to keep going but my legs could not anymore. Woa i have to day God was there with me all the way, giving me push, some how i feel him right beside me and coaching me on and giving me support.
All in all this week is a very blessed day and he has been so good to me, giving me comfort and guidance but most of all showing me love and compassion, when i want to be emo, i just look to him and instantly i am better, i have defeated the demon of depression in me.
I am change because of him and i believe he has many things installed for me.
Everyday is a new day, the old has gone the new has come, be glad in it and rejoice.
Hello fellow blog readers, here i am today again with another post but todays one will be a positive and good one.
I have finally found the happiness that trespasses all understanding, you don't know why but you are just happy because God has yet again once amaze me and touch my soul and with a little help from my friends, i manage to turn that emo self of mine into the happy positive KENNETH that i am always.
My friend Dillon wrote this something very true and realizing to me , when i started to tell him why i was depressed and sorrowful, he gave me all ears and gave me comfort but best of all, he understand me and taught me a lot through his e-mails and messenger.
He told me that every time we are depressed, we tend to think about the past but Christ has made a new being, the old has gone, the new has come. When we tend to keep looking back to the past, we tend to miss out the Good things that God has prepared for us in the present.
So through this simple words, i was able to revive myself again and God has help filled that void with unconditioning love and true joy. It is very true that when you learn to let go the past and move on, you will see that things around you start to get better.
When i finally stop being emo, start to appreciate the present and little things in life, i notice i am doing better than ever before, i have manage to live a life that is full and prosperous. By God's good grace, i was able to loss weight and slime down, i am able to do things i have never done before and i have been blessed so much.
Praise and glory be unto our God which is so merciful and caring to the lost and sinful, just remember this, when you feel your struggling all alone and feel left out, GOD LOVES AND CARES TOO MUCH ABOUT YOU TO LET YOU GO, Yes he is the only one who truly understands and loves us.
If you have any problem, pray to God, he knows what we are going through.
"Life can be a struggle but how we face the struggle determines the outcome of our day"
