Hello and welcome to my blog once again, here i am again with yet another interesting and meaningful post, not emo one, i have changed.
Its another day in another week of another month of another year but this year was my year of challenge and also victories in life. As you all know i am a changed man now, i am happy and grateful in everything i have and i am very positive minded now.
This week however proves to be one of the more interesting and challenging week compared to the rest. This week i face yet again another challenge in life, I got a revisit by the demon of depression, yes he was back but thank God he was there to help me slain it, although he manage to get a hold of me for an hour or so, God once again saved me by being there for me.
This week the challenges that i face was to be wise in everything I do especially when i have an argument with a sibling, it takes a lot more humility and humbleness to calm down and think twice before speaking, now that is wisdom. Also, i had some problems in school, thought the pressure and stress was high, i manage to look to God for shelter from the bombardment of the world. Another thing is with GIRLS, yes i made a stupid mistake by trying to find a relationship, and it is very funny cause i can imagine Adrians voice right now probably saying:"See God sudah cakap jangan, you still want, Ok now he let you try, you sow what you reap..." HAHA no offence adrian if your read this, your still a great leader and bro in christ.
Somehow this girl was playing with me , when i started off by getting to know her, it was ok, she like me and i like her, She was very open, she laughed, i laughed, could see something was going on but nothing can beat this, I CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND GIRLS, they are so confusing and weird, no offence. First we were so close and she was so open to me and getting closer to me but all of the sudden she backs off me, and i was ok, its alright no problem, some space is good for the both of us but its very confusing as in What is she thinking about? and How does she want this to go? So i very sad, confused and lost but yet again thank God for mom's and of course his glorious wisdom, my mom manage to solve my problem, very easy she say, now the girl is playing hard to get, so reverse psychology, you do the same thing, back off and give her some space, she dont want to talk, fine. Just smile and wave but dont shun her off, it would be rude, in a way you may make her miss you. And i was like, so thats how things go, interesting.
After seeing, i plan to study on girls after graduating from psychology, it would be both benefical and interesting, we are both the same species just different gender but yet we dont seem to think the same and act the same, interesting?Bottom line, i am great right now cause deep down i know i am not going to get a relationship, i am just going to be friends, which by the way is much more cool and who say single is drag? Being SINGLE is SEXY, haha, bit too much.
Anyways moving on, today i was so filled with dissappointment for failing God and of course many more problems but God is always sovereign and great, I prayed for forgiveness and he did forgive and ask him to help me go back to the root of true joy that is him. And he did help me by blessing me with jogging, yes jogging with a childhood friend name Lee Yew Leung, a great guy, he teaceh me so much and i did'nt know so many interesting things about jogging and the methods and so son but the greatest part when he decided to help me push the limits, instead of my daily rounds of 10 rounds, he challenge me to go 20 rounds.
So i said yes, no harm right, boy was it tiring but the best part was that he was there to cheer me on and guide me, which was fantastic. He standing and jogging beside me is a 15 year old kid who is an althletic by the way, guiding me how to jog and teaching me, i felt great to be humble and learn from him. After the 20 rounds, i was happy because finally i achieve something that i wuold never have accomplish in my life. Joy was there as i left home and the last words he said really make me tear cause none of my friends would say this :"Ok see you ken, it was a PLEASURE jogging with YOU." I was so touch to know that at least i made someones day and know that someone still acknowledge my presence, not to say all my friends dont, just that this things rarely happen to me.
After going home, i decided to tag along with my mom in her daily walk at the park for protection prupose, so there was my mom, speed walking around the field as i take a slow and comfortable and was what beast is that i felt Jesus walking beside me, How COOL is that? Imagine JESUS right beside me, talking to me, i felt so blessed and happy. Today was such a blessed day.
In conclusion, though there was many trials and challenges, though i fell many times, God was there to forgive and forget and guide me on, He even blessed me, what and awesome God we serve, He love me so much, he even send true joy and happiness to me, he even make things appear a lot easier in my life now, he blessed me so much that i cant contain it anymore, the song one day keeps playing in my head. such and indescribable, wonderful and loving God we serve.
"SO BLESSED I CANT CONTAIN IT,
SO MUCH I WANT TO GIVE IT AWAY,
YOUR LOVE TAUGHT ME TO LIVE NOW,
YOU ARE MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME"
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